I can’t even remember the last time I posted on my blog ….. but that’s ok. I am acknowledging that, that is all part of the Experiment I am running on myself at the moment.
Several weeks ago I was feeling complete overwhelm over a circumstance. More so than I had done for a very long time but acknowledged that there was always some sense of anxiety in my gut recently and I was fed up of living like this.
Since Manifesting my own business last year there were certain pressures I believed were all part and parcel of being an entrepreneur. The uncertainty of clients, income, business development etc and my Personal Development had all become Business Personal Development.
Intense, Hustle, hustle, hustle. Hard work and lots of effort if you want to crush it. You can only be a success if you deprive yourself of Fun time for X amount of years.
If you spend time on Social Media then your are a loser and how do you expect your business to build but then saying you need to spend so much time on this type of Social Media and do this on Social Media or how do you expect your business to build but be aware of the algorithm changes or you might go to jail !!!!!!!!
Is your head hurting just reading this?
Thankfully that little Voice in my head (that we all have) said “Tomorrow have an LGLG day. Nothing major is going to happen if you let yourself have 24 Hours not focusing on the issue and just go with the flow and do what you enjoy.
Well something did happen. A Miracle !!
(Yet again) An effortless series of events happened and everything fell into place and the situation was sorted in less that 24 hours in fact.
At the same time a series of Materials came into my awareness that all connected together and keep on coming to me and one of the Sources came to me via MindValley.
I was made aware of the book “The Surrender Experiment” by Michael A. Singer and instinctively knew I had to read it and I couldn’t stop. I was addicted to it. It wasn’t what I was expecting but it showed me how everything can fall in to place when we remove our resistance and go with the flow. The book (for me) started out with the author just needing to get away from the negative chatter in his head and I thought ‘this sounds like the book for me’
As I mentioned several other materials came into my awareness and virtually all had the same message that suggests Meditation and Allowing.
Over the weekend my partner had subconsciously said a couple things that have stung but I remembered a quote that really stuck with me from the film with Oprah Winfrey in “A Wrinkle in Time” – “Find the Right Frequency and Have Faith” so now when anything causes a negative reaction or the Negative Monkey chatter starts I remind myself to let go and have Faith which I did when these remarks happened which were generally about their lack of Faith because what I am focusing on in their eyes hasn’t arrived “Like, Yesterday”
They are still in the “I will believe it when I see it mode” where I am in the “I will see it when I believe it” mode which incidentally is the title of the Wayne Dyer book that I got the phrase “Let Go and Let God” from.
So it was so funny that I picked this YouTube video above for my Morning Motivation whilst dressing that shows just what can happen when one person believes and the other person doesn’t. It was just what I needed to hear.
And again there is a lot of Material in this video that aligns with the Experiment I am practicing on myself at the moment.
Remember “There Are No Accidents” and have a Let Go Day. After you have Meditated of Course. Because when you Meditate and Align All Things Are Possible
Like most of us I thought the world had gone crazy on November 8th 2016.
I know it wasn’t perfect before November the 8th but I was loving the way the world was moving towards more equality and more loving and just more conscious.
So when I woke up on that fateful morning I hoped I was still asleep and it was all a horrible nightmare.
Luckily around the same time I was going through a stressful personal period and know enough now in my own consciousness to use tools to assist me to get through testing times and lucky for me indirectly the material I was listening to and reading was also the perfect material to help me through the media exposure that seems impossible to avoid.
I’m not a News watcher a Newspaper reader (understanding that it is peddled to manipulate our minds into negative, fearful, hateful opinions) but I am a Facebook follower and TV watcher so it is hard to be the Ostrich I try to be around negativity and to avoid even slight snippets of what is going on in the world today.
Two books I was reading were Wayne Dyer’s “You’ll See it When You Believe It” and Marianne Williamson’s “A Return to Love”. Thankfully Wayne reminded me that what we focus on expands, not dissipate. Regardless if it makes us feel good or bad and I am far from perfect ‘physically’ and have seen and heard things that feel abhorrent to me personally and causes a physical sensation in my stomach. As I said a combination of tools aimed at other areas assisted me with these sensations.
And one of those is a Dr Joe Dispenza Meditation I downloaded after completing his book “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself” and in the meditation it has an exercise to notice when a familiar unpleasant feeling reoccurs you say the word “CHANGE” so being reminded by Wayne that if I get angry at these ‘apparent’ abhorrent actions all I am doing is exasperating the situation not eliminating it I haven’t participated in many of the actions I have seen taking place around the world. Instead I mentally have been stepping back, taking a deep breath then saying “CHANGE” to the feeling in my belly and then focusing on the person or thing that ‘so called’ created the unpleasant sensation to arise and then send it or them LOVE.
Marianne explicitly explained in her book how when someone acted in her life in a way that created immense anger in her she repeatedly said she forgave them and released them to the Holy Spirit and then Marianne details how this situation played out in a highly positive effective way and just reading it created a positive feeling in me so I have implemented this in my own life and the results have created exponential changes that I have seen magnify daily.
You may have noticed that I have placed certain words in a semicolon and that is because non-physically I have been reminded we are ALL perfect and this helps when sending love to the physical version of someone I feel upsets me or created a sensation in me by their actions. Amongst all this info it advised – imagine someone as a baby if you have trouble forgiving them because babies are perfect and it is hard to think of them being imperfect or doing something abhorrent and know when I act out unloving physically I am perfect non-physically and my unloving, fearful acts are gifts to me in the sense they are highlighting areas in my physicality that I still need to work on.
Early on in this post I wrote I was going through a difficult situation personally and I know enough now that there is something wrong in my thinking somewhere that attracted this so delved in harder than normal to work on this area, fed up of creating the same patterns over and over again throughout my life.
The perfect materials have constantly turned up and continue to turn up at the perfect time for my personal life and for what is going on in the wider world and some material I have never heard before or have read but never digested the true meaning and another word I highlighted was apparent because I truly grasped the fact that everything is happening just as it should be all the time even when it feels the opposite because it is painful or uncomfortable.
It may not make sense that something so terrible is happening but we may never know what the true purpose behind it is until a lot later if at all but how many times have we read people’s lives have changed because of a tragedy that completely changed their thinking or gave their lives true purpose or set them off on a mission to help others so other people didn’t have to suffer the same fate.
How many times have we heard those stories after positive experiences?
Taking this on board I have been able to take a step back mentally and remind myself I don’t know why this is really happening and everything is always perfect and then bless the situation.
The last two words I highlighted were ‘so called‘ because I accidentally came across two new people recently and one is Marisa Peer. You may have heard of Marisa and her work but Marisa had never crossed my awareness until a week ago and have watched several video’s on YouTube and have created new daily rituals because of it and in one Marisa explains how to deal with things that people say that could hurt you and describes it as ‘letting it in’ or rather advises not to ‘let it in’. This reminded me people can’t hurt us unless we let them. We have a choice to let their actions affect us or not.
Finally the other gem I have fallen upon accidentally is Christie Marie Sheldon and Christie explains how she can see energy blocks within us around various things but the things I have watched are mostly around blocks in receiving abundance. I mentioned earlier fed up of the same situations arising I decided to ‘Go hard or Go home’ on my difficult situations and maybe because my desire was more amplified than ever before I have come across more assistance and I am now grateful to the situation because it highlighted areas I still needed to work on and I am informed once you truly work on an area and solve it, it can’t return so hence my new philosophy to not judge anything just LOVE it.
And in Tribute to this and the fact that I went to an excellent Exhibition at the V&A Museum in London recently called Revolution and physically saw hand written lyrics by John Lennon and Paul McCartney and suits from Sargent Pepper and the Jacket worn by John Lennon on his ‘Imagine’ promo remember –
Well I read more of Dr Wayne W. Dyer’s new book and relax into the fact that it is all happening perfectly as my weekend draws to an end and I have to prepare for another day of cut sore hands amongst other things I know my dream is already in my possession.
After watching our favourite TV program I channel hop and see Bruce Almighty.
As I watch the question comes into my mind. Has Jim Carry made anything recently. So I google and a link catches my eye and I click on it.
This is what I see and watch.
The magnitude of what is unseen within our Universe strikes square on in the chest and ….. I love it. I feel magnificently ecstatically alive and grateful for every iddy biddy intsy bitsy quantum molecule of it ALL.
Following feeling inspired yesterday to research Wordpress as it was niggling at me. I did, I made an account and then I ….. I went blank. Mrs document the slightest little thing knickers, went blank and couldn’t find a thing to write about.
Mind you I am obviously not so tech-no geeky as I thought I was and it was probably reading all the admin stuff that blurred any other interpretation of wordage to arrive so I decided to just sit.
I asked the question in my sitting “Maybe I Am not ready?” And instantaneously the voice said “you were born ready”. Oh OK.
In my sitting I said an affirmation “I Am therefore I can” but then I thought about it and thought “therefore I can” sounds like I still have to achieve IT! Whatever IT is and reading Pam Grout – “E-Squared” the other day. It said as soon we desire to be or have something etc it’s done instantaneously and thinking on this I felt more comfortable with the affirmation “I Am therefore I Am” defined as the first I Am meaning I Am God/ part of the All that is so can achieve anything and the second I Am meaning I Am whatever it is I was previously wanting to ‘Can’ I already have on some quantum level.
Money, money, money. Thanks Victor Boc and dollar a day guy it’s working. I have had a bad money consciousness all my life (my biggest hurdle) and I know God bless her but I probably picked it up from my mum and until recently I truly thought Am I never going to beat this one just like my belly and cellulite issue. I read and read and read all sorts of self improvement books and while I don’t doubt that they work I doubt my ability to change my thought processes in these areas as they seem to be so deeply routed which is crazy when I see LOA working in so many other amazing little synchro’s every single day, however bingo moment !! Yesterday as I was traveling to London it suddenly dawned on me I have just been given £100 to go to London for the day and do Ali stuff. Thanks Universe. Even more it made me realise this giving money away and it has to come back stuff actually really does work. That £100 gift far out ways what I have given away since I have only been adopting the approach since mid August .. Result or what.
I have always, try as I might not to, have had a sickening fear of always not having enough money. Worry worry worry but then I spotted a book on my kindle app on the ‘if you liked this you might like these bit’ by Victor Boc called “How to solve all your money problems forever” and I adopted the practices and it felt good, it actually felt good to give money away and the best bit was nobody knowing I’d done it, but get this I gave away 1% of my income and I started to feel a bit flat waiting to my next pay day to arrive to give more money away and if by magic Todd Silva in arrived in my awareness (the Universe always answers). I can’t even remember where or how I came across him but he was suggesting giving a dollar a day away. I live in England so immediately started giving a pound coin away but still call it a dollar a day as it rhymes better. Again the anonymity of it (which I’ve just blown) feels cool and I Am putting my £100 gift, oh and my £3 lottery win last night down to it and more importantly I no longer feel fearful about money, enjoy being philanthropic and the best bit of all actually feel for the first time in my life that I can … Sorry ‘have’ changed my wealth conscious thinking in the right direction at last, so if I can change this thought process I can change ‘Any’ negative thought process into a positive one.
Maybe this is why in my sitting the next thought came up ” it’s not the food I put in my mouth that creates the spare tyre it’s the thoughts that I put into the food that creates the spare tyre”
Now I Am no stranger to this as when I started to make the correlation that every-time I give myself a deadline to lose weight, a challenge or just decide to get extra strict prior to an event I actually gain weight or obstacles arise and as I said previously the answer always appears and it rose in the way of a book by at the time an unknown author to me, Greg Kuhn and his book “Why Quantum Physicists Don’t Get Fat” appearing randomly at the side of a web page I was reading. This book was like a revelation to me but I did what I used to do prior to June 2010. Read it and then not put it into practice for very long. Then Pam Grout and E.Squared came around in July this year and I did the Jenny Craig experiment ‘Experiment #7’ as prescribed for 72 hours but then normal life crept up on me and never repeated it. Now following my sitting and the words that popped up I Am going to read these books again and make my whole life an experiment like Buckminster Fuller did, well on the eating front anyway for the moment and think about the thoughts I put into my food, not just for 72 hours but every hour I consciously can until I get this like the money thing. Until it is a new way of thinking and effortless like driving a car as I say to my trainees. “Have you heard the saying, it takes 30 days to build a habit? Well don’t beat yourself up when you start this job because you haven’t built the neural pathways yet to do it and it’s going to take time, like learning to drive a car, mirror, signal, manoeuvre. It’s going to take practised effort until you’ve built that pathway and it becomes second nature”. Like learning to ice-skate. Random one I dropped in from remembering one of Wayne Dyers books but perhaps its time to practice what I preach in the area of … well my butt and belly if I AM honest.
I just realised that I used the word ‘Sitting’ subconsciously. Now I am rubbish and Meditating or Visualizing even though I know deep down that’s the key to getting what you want your life to truly be and the other day I was mooching about in Youtube seeing what new recommendation were sent to me and there was a humorous one, and thinking now I Am not quite sure if it was the Dali Lama one or the Eckhart Tolle video that was saying if you travel to a Zen monastery the Monks will ask you how long you have been sitting, not meditating. IE: I have been ‘Sitting’ for 25 years. Probably true here too but in my case 25 years of reading other peoples books and not getting off my axxe and doing anything about it. But I like the idea of ‘Sitting’ I can do that. I have also noticed where what ever I did, including reading which my partner can’t get their head around I have the TV on in the background I now want the TV off more and more. It’s sound annoys me. Program’s and film’s I used enjoy bore me so Now I’ll use this time for ‘Sitting’. Not meditating, not visualising, just ‘Sitting’ and if something pops up or I slip in the gap bonus !!
I have been on annual leave this week and decided to start reading Wayne Dyer’s book “21 Days to Master Success and Inner Peace” I had bought on iBooks several weeks ago. I started two days later than planned but maybe that was perfect timing.
Day 1 was – be open to everything. Day 2 was – be attached to nothing and something I read linked into Pam Grout’s instantly done message and quite liked the idea of being open to everything and attached to nothing and lead me to note down an affirmation of “Be open to everything, attached to nothing and grateful for it ALL“. What a peaceful way of living. Day 3 was – Don’t Die with Your Music Still in You”. Wow that was a shocker. I was reading it on the bus to London where I was planning to spend the day in Tate Britain. The first paragraph was explaining that Kahlil Gibran says “When you are born, your work is placed in your heart”. This linked in very nicely with watching Tom Shadyac’s film “I AM” the day before and talking about the importance of our hearts not our brains and started the resonance that my not starting this book when I planned was part of a more superior part of me plan maybe? I could rewrite this whole chapter in this blog to explain how it related to everything that was happening in my life right now and how it felt like it was written for me directly but don’t worry I won’t, I just suggest that if you are reading this blog that maybe ‘your’ reading it is saying – maybe you need to check this book out yourself. One bit I will refer to was an analogy of your ‘Intuitive invisible presence within you as a nagging little creature that sits on your right shoulder and reminds you when you have lost your sense of purpose’ because I had had a nagging little feeling gnawing away at me for a couple days but that’s to come in another post.
The book describes your Right side of your brain as the one you should follow and the Left side as the, hang on a minute, oh no don’t step out of the crowd, what if, what if, what if. I have tried so many attempts to step away from the crowd and go in my direction but have let the left brain win. I give up at the first perceived failure, negative comment etc. Get back in the box you !! At the end of day 3 there was this comment by Thoreau “If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music he hears, however measured or far away” Now I know I have always had a different beat inside me and used to ask why and for a while now I have been feeling ‘who cares take me or leave me’ now that I have taken the leap to put my music out there on a public stage rather than an Ali to Ali blog the feeling I have inside even if no-one reads it feels so right in my heart I have to keep going in the direction of my little drummer ‘IT’. I have to push through and I know, I know deep this time, that somethings different, I Am different. I feel that what ever has to happen or fall away is OK. I Am trusting that, that’s the way it has to be and with perfect timing I read in Day 4 that failure is an illusion. No one ever fails at anything. Everything that you do produces a result.
These pictures cropped up on my Facebook wall after writing this post.
When I thought the words dried up the above appeared just from a few minutes of “Sitting” and even more miraculous, this morning I actually jumped out of bed wanting to get to the laptop and finish this blog as I was unable last night due to a prior commitment. Now I haven’t felt that inspired ‘In Spirit’ since 1999 !!
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