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Imperfectly perfect


The other week I watched a Super Soul Sunday where the contributor spoke of how you can get anger out of your system in 60 seconds. Just breath gently and think of something else and you can get rid of anger. It’s our choice to feel angry and we can simply just decide not to be angry. I liked this thought and have been practising it.

Making a choice about a situation and labelling it good or bad echoes what I have learnt from one of my favourite authors Greg Kuhn and another bit of Greg I like to think about while I aim to do practices of learning to enhance my personal experience is that ‘I Am Growing a Greater me’ which happens aptly to be the name of his new book, well almost its “Grow a Greater You”.

Inspiringly Greg openly admits that he to practices the advise he is giving to others and that he is not perfect and has bad days. I felt good reading that but not in a disparaging way, just that it makes me feel OK to be human and not always being on top of my game too but my greatest shock was from another Super Soul Sunday when Oprah whilst interviewing a minister openly admitted to not being able to get a handle on not getting annoyed with people who do things that frustrate her and the peace-loving minister said “Me too”. I just thought if there are two people who would have this sussed one is Oprah and the other was a God-loving man.

I am far more sorted than I have ever been in my whole life in getting a handle on being frustrated or angry but feel I am not succeeding in other areas.

Sometimes it just helps to know that people who we may assume have it all worked out still have work to do on themselves as do everyone and you may be doing far better than you assume you are and it is OK to be Imperfectly Perfect


Other peoples LOA is Buzzy


This morning I came into work and a colleague felt compelled to tell me of a series of events that appear they will turn out very fortuitous to there grandson.

They explained how their grandson who is starting out in a music career had a gig on Saturday evening and when they arrived it was a far from favorable venue and despite being booked the hosts were far from hospitable. It had crossed their minds to cut there losses and leave but managed to come to a compromise with the landlady. Whilst their grandson was playing their son spotted a very well dressed couple look through the window. They hovered for awhile, what looked like contemplating entry but then walked away however a short time later they reappeared at the window and then entered the property.

After a while the couple approached my colleagues son sat at the bar and asked if they were connected to the musician? When aware of the connection they introduced themselves as Talent Scouts working for a famous Cruise Liner company. A discussion ensued and cards exchanged and an invitation of interview.

So what seemed an unusual and unfavorable situation turned into a very positive experience and I inquired “Do I remember recently you mentioning that he had an aspiration to play on Cruise Liners?” and they confirmed I was correct.

I felt honored that she wanted to share the news with me and it may appear it is my affiliation to the Law of Attraction that instigated the news however none of my colleagues are aware of it as are very few of my friends. That’s what makes it more exciting, to see and hear the miracle of the Law of Attraction at work in other peoples lives apart from mine is so Buzzy !!!

Why does it always surprise me!

Why does it always surprise me that the information I read etc is just right for my eyes at exactly the right time for what I Am feeling, thinking, experiencing.

I had journalled but not blogged about an experience that had made me think that’s it enough is enough my life has to change and then a sequence of events makes me buy Jen Sincero’s book “You are a Badass” and within the first few pages I Am thinking this is so spooky this is so what I need to be reading right now. I bought glossy magazines (so unlike me) but also instigated by my decision and it has inspirational articles related exactly to my current way of thinking plus a new author and book I wasn’t aware of but also appears ideal.

Later I Am thinking of how many books I have recently bought and should I be being more proactive than gaining more info in books and not having time to read post by Hay House earlier I click on to Hay House Facebook page to revisit the post and I see a post by Louise Hay saying that she is 87 on the 8th of October and she believes the best thing you can do for yourself is constantly be willing to learn new things and that she still attends as many events as she can and constantly trying to learn as many new things as she can.

Thank you Louise for answering my question about should I be reading so many books – answer ‘Yes’. Thank you once again for helping me pass my driving test (first time) and thank you for being an amazing inspiration full stop.

Happy 87 birthday xx

WordPress Blog day 1: Thought the words dried up.

Following feeling inspired yesterday to research Wordpress as it was niggling at me. I did, I made an account and then I ….. I went blank. Mrs document the slightest little thing knickers, went blank and couldn’t find a thing to write about.

Mind you I am obviously not so tech-no geeky as I thought I was and it was probably reading all the admin stuff that blurred any other interpretation of wordage to arrive so I decided to just sit.

I asked the question in my sitting “Maybe I Am not ready?” And instantaneously the voice said “you were born ready”. Oh OK.

In my sitting I said an affirmation “I Am therefore I can” but then I thought about it and thought “therefore I can” sounds like I still have to achieve IT! Whatever IT is and reading Pam Grout – “E-Squared” the other day. It said as soon we desire to be or have something etc it’s done instantaneously and thinking on this I felt more comfortable with the affirmation “I Am therefore I Am” defined as the first I Am meaning I Am God/ part of the All that is so can achieve anything  and the second I Am meaning I Am whatever it is I was previously wanting to ‘Can’ I already have on some quantum level.

Money, money, money. Thanks Victor Boc and dollar a day guy it’s working. I have had a bad money consciousness all my life (my biggest hurdle) and I know God bless her but I probably picked it up from my mum and until recently I truly thought Am I never going to beat this one just like my belly and cellulite issue. I read and read and read all sorts of self improvement books and while I don’t doubt that they work I doubt my ability to change my thought processes in these areas as they seem to be so deeply routed which is crazy when I see LOA working in so many other amazing little synchro’s every single day, however bingo moment !! Yesterday as I was traveling to London it suddenly dawned on me I have just been given £100 to go to London for the day and do Ali stuff. Thanks Universe. Even more it made me realise this giving money away and it has to come back stuff actually really does work. That £100 gift far out ways what I have given away since I have only been adopting the approach since mid August .. Result or what.

I have always, try as I might not to, have had a sickening fear of always not having enough money. Worry worry worry but then I spotted a book on my kindle app on the ‘if you liked this you might like these bit’ by Victor Boc called “How to solve all your money problems forever” and I adopted the practices and it felt good, it actually felt good to give money away and the best bit was nobody knowing I’d done it, but get this I gave away 1% of my income and I started to feel a bit flat waiting to my next pay day to arrive to give more money away and if by magic Todd Silva in arrived in my awareness (the Universe always answers). I can’t even remember where or how I came across him but he was suggesting giving a dollar a day away. I live in England so immediately started giving a pound coin away but still call it a dollar a day as it rhymes better. Again the anonymity of it (which I’ve just blown) feels cool and I Am putting my £100 gift, oh and my £3 lottery win last night down to it and more importantly I no longer feel fearful about money, enjoy being philanthropic and the best bit of all actually feel for the first time in my life that I can … Sorry ‘have’ changed my wealth conscious thinking in the right direction at last, so if I can change this thought process I can change ‘Any’ negative thought process into a positive one.


Maybe this is why in my sitting the next thought came up ” it’s not the food I put in my mouth that creates the spare tyre it’s the thoughts that I put into the food that creates the spare tyre”

Now I Am no stranger to this as when I started to make the correlation that every-time I give myself a deadline to lose weight, a challenge or just decide to get extra strict prior to an event I actually gain weight or obstacles arise and as I said previously the answer always appears and it rose in the way of a book by at the time an unknown author to me, Greg Kuhn and his book “Why Quantum Physicists Don’t Get Fat” appearing randomly at the side of a web page I was reading. This book was like a revelation to me but I did what I used to do prior to June 2010. Read it and then not put it into practice for very long. Then Pam Grout and E.Squared came around in July this year and I did the Jenny Craig experiment ‘Experiment #7’ as prescribed for 72 hours but then normal life crept up on me and never repeated it. Now following my sitting and the words that popped up I Am going to read these books again and make my whole life an experiment like Buckminster Fuller did, well on the eating front anyway for the moment and think about the thoughts I put into my food, not just for 72 hours but every hour I consciously can until I get this like the money thing. Until it is a new way of thinking and effortless like driving a car as I say to my trainees. “Have you heard the saying, it takes 30 days to build a habit? Well don’t beat yourself up when you start this job because you haven’t built the neural pathways yet to do it and it’s going to take time, like learning to drive a car, mirror, signal, manoeuvre. It’s going to take practised effort until you’ve built that pathway and it becomes second nature”. Like learning to ice-skate. Random one I dropped in from remembering one of Wayne Dyers books but perhaps its time to practice what I preach in the area of … well my butt and belly if I AM honest.

I just realised that I used the word ‘Sitting’ subconsciously. Now I am rubbish and Meditating or Visualizing even though I know deep down that’s the key to getting what you want your life to truly be and the other day I was mooching about in Youtube seeing what new recommendation were sent to me and there was a humorous one, and thinking now I Am not quite sure if it was the Dali Lama one or the Eckhart Tolle video that was saying if you travel to a Zen monastery the Monks will ask you how long you have been sitting, not meditating. IE: I have been ‘Sitting’ for 25 years. Probably true here too but in my case 25 years of reading other peoples books and not getting off my axxe and doing anything about it. But I like the idea of ‘Sitting’ I can do that. I have also noticed where what ever I did, including reading which my partner can’t get their head around I have the TV on in the background I now want the TV off more and more. It’s sound annoys me. Program’s and film’s I used enjoy bore me so Now I’ll use this time for ‘Sitting’. Not meditating, not visualising, just ‘Sitting’ and if something pops up or I slip in the gap bonus !!

I have been on annual leave this week and decided to start reading Wayne Dyer’s book “21 Days to Master Success and Inner Peace” I had bought on iBooks several weeks ago. I started two days later than planned but maybe that was perfect timing.

Day 1 was – be open to everything. Day 2 was – be attached to nothing and something I read linked into Pam Grout’s instantly done message and quite liked the idea of being open to everything and attached to nothing and lead me to note down an affirmation of “Be open to everything, attached to nothing and grateful for it ALL“. What a peaceful way of living. Day 3 was – Don’t Die with Your Music Still in You”. Wow that was a shocker. I was reading it on the bus to London where I was planning to spend the day in Tate Britain. The first paragraph was explaining that Kahlil Gibran says “When you are born, your work is placed in your heart”. This linked in very nicely with watching Tom Shadyac’s film “I AM” the day before and talking about the importance of our hearts not our brains and started the resonance that my not starting this book when I planned was part of a more superior part of me plan maybe? I could rewrite this whole chapter in this blog to explain how it related to everything that was happening in my life right now and how it felt like it was written for me directly but don’t worry I won’t, I just suggest that if you are reading this blog that maybe ‘your’ reading it is saying  – maybe you need to check this book out yourself. One bit I will refer to was an analogy of your ‘Intuitive invisible presence within you as a nagging little creature that sits on your right shoulder and reminds you when you have lost your sense of purpose’ because I had had a nagging little feeling gnawing away at me for a couple days but that’s to come in another post.

The book describes your Right side of your brain as the one you should follow and the Left side as the, hang on a minute, oh no don’t step out of the crowd, what if, what if, what if. I have tried so many attempts to step away from the crowd and go in my direction but have let the left brain win. I give up at the first perceived failure, negative comment etc. Get back in the box you !! At the end of day 3 there was this comment by Thoreau “If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music he hears, however measured or far away” Now I know I have always had a different beat inside me and used to ask why and for a while now I have been feeling ‘who cares take me or leave me’ now that I have taken the leap to put my music out there on a public stage rather than an Ali to Ali blog the feeling I have inside even if no-one reads it feels so right in my heart I have to keep going in the direction of my little drummer ‘IT’. I have to push through and I know, I know deep this time, that somethings different, I Am different. I feel that what ever has to happen or fall away is OK. I Am trusting that, that’s the way it has to be and with perfect timing I read in Day 4 that failure is an illusion. No one ever fails at anything. Everything that you do produces a result.

These pictures cropped up on my Facebook wall after writing this post.


When I thought the words dried up the above appeared just from a few minutes of “Sitting” and even more miraculous, this morning I actually jumped out of bed wanting to get to the laptop and finish this blog as I was unable last night due to a prior commitment. Now I haven’t felt that inspired ‘In Spirit’ since 1999 !!