I’d read self-help books since the late 90’s but it wasn’t until I watched this film and read the book of the same name in 2010 I got it.
So if I got it why do I some times need a huge reminder to get it?
A long time ago I acknowledged if I saw something 3 times it was the Universe trying to get me to sit up and take notice so why oh why wasn’t I getting this message?
Plain and simple = Arrogance !!
Last week a like minded friend came round and we discussed books etc and the book “The Secret” came up. I’d recommended this book to so many people in and after 2010 when it came into my awareness but hadn’t thought or spoke of it in a long time.
I have habit of watching motivational material on YouTube and yesterday on ‘recommended’ the first thing that came up was the full length movie “The Secret”.
And today there is was again and I’d like to say it was the third time round trick that got my awareness ……. nah, in my head I was saying “I don’t need to watch that, I know all that. I’ve watched it read it years ago. I’ve moved on” but the Universe had other plans.
I swear I clicked off it to move on to another ‘Recommended’ that caught my eye however the film started playing any how and I am so glad it did.
Sometimes it seems we have to just get over our arrogance and say “Hey, why not. Let’s give this a rerun and see what it can teach us or remind us a second, third or even fourth time around”
What it the Universe trying to knock you over the head with that you are ignoring ? xx 🙂
I had a habit of listening to inspiring information on my commute to work that I adopted from Ali Brown and made 21st century as Ali’s version was listening to Anthony Robbins cassettes via a walkman on the subway and mine was listening to YouTube video’s via the app on my smart phone.
Now that I work from home I am still listening to inspiring video’s but on my smart TV whilst dressing in the morning and this was one I was listening to the other day.
I love anything Michael. His voice is like hot chocolate sauce on your soul but this video I especially loved and it had an exercise in it that I stopped what I was doing to practice it. In the exercise your are asking questions of what the Universe is trying to express through you and my answers were as follows.
1. Love everyone
2. Practice tolerance
3. Bless everyone and everything that tests that tolerance
So every time I found myself making a judgement of any one or thing, however simple in my head and sometimes verbally I would say “Bless you”. Bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you.
Ok it did feel a little forced but it also helped me a) feel better and b) highlight how many judgements I make randomly without even realising it when I already think I am a loving, tolerant person.
What instigated this blog post was that in light of recent events I was finding a neighbour challenging. They have been knocking on my door daily as they are chasing the status of replacement item for their house.
My partner is a self employed trades person and our neighbour has adopted him as their personal handyman and knocked at our door randomly late on Sunday evening explaining that an item in their home has a slightly rusty fitting. It’s not broken, they just want it replaced for aesthetic reasons but they keep knocking everyday asking if he has sourced the part and when he is going to fit it.
I keep telling them that he is very busy and he is working daily away from town and when he returns the merchants is closed but he is trying his best but it falls on death ears and to them their whole world appears to revolving around this item and they keep knocking very anxiously.
They are not a client, he never asked to be their self appointed handyman but that doesn’t stop them acting like they are his number one priority yesterday when they knocked and I watched them walk away and then turned to reenter my home slightly bewildered that people have been mercilessly killed and families have lost loved ones and to my neighbour this is their number one priority in the world I found myself saying “Bless Her!”
I stopped in my tracks. I just blessed her subconsciously and didn’t have to remember or force myself to say it. It just happened naturally.
I liked that it came naturally. I like that appears to be becoming a habit and then I wondered is this situation the Universe testing me and my ability to be more tolerant and loving?
If this is the case the Universe also likes to joke as the same person that I am writing about just knocked on my door at 08:30am in the morning to ask if my partner is coming to fit the item tonight and I tried to tell them he is working very later tonight and can’t see them fitting it as when they finally get home they will feel done in and ready for their evening meal but they have asked to take my number so they can call me later to check just in case he is coming to fit it they will make sure they are home. Instead of getting frustrated I smiled and guess what ….. I blessed her.
Blessing people feels so much better in my soul than getting annoyed.
I felt compelled to pick up a Dr Wayne Dyer book up the other day and read it randomly (but there is no random in the Universe) and what I read was astounding but that is another blog post but it reminds us what loving people can do to the world and what being negative does to us. So I am blessing the blessing.
The other day I was feeling a little off focus, disconnected and I knew I needed to charge my spiritual battery.
With this acknowledgement where do I go? What do I do?
One of the quickest, easiest ways I have found just to start making myself feel better is Pam Grout’s blog. Easily and effortlessly Pam has the ability to remind me how great this Universe is but on this day with at least 3 posts to catch up on, it felt like Pam was posting just for me. These posts were more profound than a quick shot of happy adrenalin.
Sometimes Pam posts examples of the emails she receives from people thanking her and telling her of the amazing things that have happened to them following reading Pam’s books and acting on the advise and one of them made me think that’s the next step to charge this my physical battery …. get some shape action or in other words reread Pam’s books.
In amongst the blogs and what I reread within a few hours I was reminded by Pam that in our human physicality we ALL, regardless of how phenomenal we think someone is who seems to have it all going on get wrapped up in our 5 senses and let doubt, worry and fear grab us by the delicate areas and shake us around.
This is what led me to the place of realising I needing to take things to a higher level. Something happened to me and I let myself become completely overwhelmed by fear.
What I also realised whilst reading Pam was all the magnificent information that I had highlighted and then completely forgot about. Pam said it herself that even she goes all 5 senses now and again and has to keep working daily to put herself first and remind herself of the power we have at our disposal 24/7. She described it like training a puppy not to pee on your slippers. You have to take it outside and show it all the incredible unlimited magnificence of the Universe it has at it’s disposal.
That’s when it struck me. I need daily reminders to go beyond the 5. It’s not a one time underline and forget situation. If I really want to rock my physical world with joy, happiness and abundance and remember the non-physical assistance I (WE ALL) have at our disposal literally every second of our waking and non-waking time space continuum I need to puppy (toilet) train my brain.
I have a digital journal running on an app I use called Evernote that I can access on any device and syncs to all my other devices so at the start of each day I have made a tick list of things I aim to do that day. I know I can be a little control freak on myself and then probably give myself a mental kicking if I feel I have failed to achieve something so I have created a balance for myself buy accepting that I am not going to tick all the boxes in one day so what doesn’t get ticked gets deleted for that day but I still have a track record of what I have achieved that put me and my personal happiness at the top of the tree.
The ticks are things like read something inspirational for at least 30 minutes, listen to a pod cast, meditate, read my goal cards, yoga, write things I am grateful for.
The list is evolving all the time because if I think of something that maybe beneficial but acknowledge I will probably forget to do it I add it to the list. The other evening I watched a Facebook Live with Anita Moorjani and Anita reminded us that the most important purpose in our lives is to love ourselves and when we think of an opportunity we didn’t take etc we probably berate ourselves but we should love ourselves. I had been thinking a lot what if’s recently but because of Anita’s words I have been loving myself. Not a habit I wanted to get out of so on the list it went.
I was listening to a YouTube video the other day with Bob Proctor ‘You Were Born Rich’ number 4 (amazing) where he discussed writing down what you really want and meditating on it and reading it everyday. I am guilty of doing that ages ago and now forgetting where I wrote it so I wrote a new expanded version and placed it at the top of my daily electronic journal and copied and pasted it in to all the other subsequent days for the months and will transfer it when I get to January 2017 which is already made up as it was one of my tasks to do the other day.
If I have something bespoke to do that day that isn’t on the generic tick list I place it under the heading Actions and these actions are in red. When I have achieved the action I change it to black and at the end of the day for what ever reason I couldn’t get it done and it was still red I just cut and paste it for the next day as a reminder.
I may listen to an interesting Podcast hands free whilst driving but not the next day so delete podcast but I may listen to Bob Proctor whilst shaving my legs and getting dressed instead. I most definitely read something inspirational for at least 30 minutes most days and everything seems to have some beneficial takeaway and I have become far more productive and happier and less fearful from my brain Training. I even wrote 2 chapters in a book I have been writing for a while that hasn’t happened in months so I was buzzing.
I could go on forever with all the other things I feel I have learnt or achieved since creating my list but I’m going now to tick ‘Blog Post’ something else I haven’t done in ages until I put it on the list 🙂
I won’t lie it has been really, really hard to hold my Faith the last few days as I tried even harder not to question why did such a terrible thing happen at the completely wrong time and during my time of trying not to reflect it did creep into my awareness that when I make a special declaration or work hard on changing old negative thought forms instead of things improving something majorly negative happens. I made one of these kinds of actions when my accident happened the very next day ironically shortly after saying the affirmation “I Am happy, healthy and wealthy” several times before raising that morning.
Acknowledging this observation made it very hard to want to focus on my dreams or goals and definitely not pursuing them. Accepting my lot seemed the only option and then I made a decision two days ago to have a ‘Let Go Let God’ day. I just wasn’t going to put any pressures on myself to do, be or have anything and just follow my instincts and follow any nudges.
At the end of yesterday as I went to sleep, I fell into a satisfied slumber. At one point in the day still feeling disbelieving but following intuition and reading a favourite authors latest blog post about seeing signs I had the thought “I want a sign” and not only that I wanted it in a specific way. I was still disbelieving in its ability and boy did I get what I asked for in a massive way in an amazingly short space of time. It seems so unbelievable I am not even going to detail it. I just know it happened and it renewed my Faith in the Universe.
Early in to the day today, I got the nudge to make today a LGLG day and I have followed the nudges and I have been led to even more amazing pieces of information and wrapped up within the information was the quote below.
“Every great work, every big accomplishment, has been brought into manifestation through holding to the vision, and often just before the big achievement, comes apparent failure and discouragement.” – Florence Scovel Shinn
I have been truly reminded that God’s delays are not God’s denials regardless of outside appearances and I have been infused with the idea to make every day a LGLG day.
I have definitely had a peak and trough week. No violins required but just a brief description of where this is going. I am at a point now that I am wet myself with excitement.
A few weeks ago I was watching the UK Voice TV program and Boy George made a comment on the lines of ‘pursuing music as he was literally unemployable’. That comment stuck with me. I have always wanted to be self-employed even as a teenager and at that point I had already made that decision to train for something that allows this possibility but it did make me think what is it about me that always goes into a job and shortly after needs to leave? Usually because I cannot tolerate certain types of people and their behaviours.
My first blog posts are about being a child and feeling the freak, the outsider. Having totally different aspirations than my peers. My first project at college where I returned to the class room with a totally different perspective than those peers.
I am at that point again where I am finding it hard to accept certain people’s behaviours and this week I was sat in a room where once again I felt completely alien to the majority of the participants.
On the day I got interviewed for this job I am in now it had a very strange turn of events as it usually does when you make a decision and the Universe conspires. My then boss who I had a good relationship with and who was also unhappy in their role asked me if I was looking for another job? I replied “I thought we all were?” (we, meaning our other colleague we shared the department with). They too then made a comment that stuck with me and has risen many times since “Don’t sell yourself short. You are very intelligent and amazing at what you do. I understand you need to look for a new role but don’t undervalue yourself that’s all I am saying”.
Unbeknown to them I had already turned down an interview for that morning which shortly after I found an email asking was it date and time and they could be flexible and I got interviewed that evening as the interviewers were down from London and had to travel back the following day.
At the time I was looking for a new role I was listening to Louise Hay every morning and I was imagining the types of jobs I would like, little details it would have and I received all of them but I clearly hadn’t thought about it detail enough looking back now and that is why I have often recalled the ‘Don’t under sell yourself comment’. I was so clearly desperate to get away from some of the 1970’s attitudes I was up against I didn’t think it through enough and I take full responsibility for where I currently am but at the same time I know it will be all ok and I constantly thank the lessons and the people I find arbitrary as gifts to ensure I do not stay in a comfort zone and keep moving towards my goals and dreams.
I mentioned that the week has had peaks and it has had a lot of peaks. I have been listening to Bob Proctors Born Rich program on YouTube that I have saved into my account from the Proctor Gallagher Institute channel. I have acquired the companion workbook and inspired by goal cards ordered some sleeves off of eBay of the like to create name badges for businesses etc and downloaded an app that you can add text to and found inspiring background pictures and added the text of my goals. I can now carry these cards everywhere and look at them often.
Last night I was watching the final of The Voice UK when Paloma Faith made an analogy that knocked my socks off. In the trough times I have questioned why do I so often feel the outsider? When I was at college that first project was to go out in to the environment and analyse what we saw and bring it back for a discussion group. As the Tutor went around the group I began to panic inside. I was un-confident and terrified to speak at the best of times but as I listened to my peers give descriptions of the devastation of man I was confused. I saw a different picture. I saw a picture of hope and despite whatever humans throw at the environment it finds a way to break through like moss on street signs and weeds through tarmac and there it was again that look from my peers as I expressed my findings, the outsider again. Eventually my whole finals at University revolved around us constantly rushing around and failing to see the simple beauty in the world and to try to encourage people to take time to stop and see that weed etc and appreciate it.
I have always been drawn to people like Boy George (who I thought had the most gorgeous eyes when I first saw him on Top of The Pops) Will i Am and Paloma Faith and what Paloma said that knocked my socks off was in describing an act that had just sung ‘In life in this concrete juggle we are all rushing through our lives all the time and some times you walk on the pavement and people are stepping over things growing out of the cracks and these things some people think are weeds butI will stop and look at them and think wow nature took over and those are beautiful flowers’ and Paloma felt the artist that had just sung was that beautiful flower sticking out the crack in the pavement.
Shortly after this heart stopping moment Boy George, my teenage hero took the same act to see Cyndi Lauper. I was transported back to being a teenager and reminded how much Cyndi’s song “True Colours’ meant to me as I sat alone in my room night after night.
This morning as I woke, I lay in bed and remembered that thing you have in smart phones where you demand it to do something for you when you are to lazy to use your fingers and stated find me True Colours by Cyndi Lauper. Without my glasses on I tapped at what I thought was True Colours and actually was ‘Time after Time’.
As I listened to the lyrics after such a long time I realised this could be an analogy of the Universe. No matter what you had planned that you didn’t follow through with. No matter where you are or what you are going through – “If you’re lost, you can look and you will find it. Time after time. If you fall I will catch you. I will be waiting. Time after time.
Realising my accident (or was it) I immediately downloaded “True Colours”
“You with the sad heart don’t be discouraged .It’s hard to take courage in a world full of people you can lose sight of it all and the darkness inside you can make you feel so small but I see your true colors shining through and that’s why I love you so don’t be afraid to let them show”
“If this world makes you crazy and you have taken all you can bear, you call me up because you know I will be there”
Listening to Paloma and Cyndi this is why I got pants wetting excited. When I can’t seem to find the right job, tolerate peoples ugly behaviours, feel like and outsider in a room full of people there is nothing wrong with me I am just in the wrong job for me and in a room of different types of people than myself that is not the right environment to show my true colours and if the decisions I have made in the past haven’t allowed me to show my true colours, it’s OK because the Universe is waiting for me time after time.
So I am calling up the Universe and I know that now I have made a decision it will conspire to make it happen
I haven’t posted recently because I have been flat out investing in myself and using every spare moment.
I am currently employed but retraining to gain a skill and qualification to enable me to do something in a self-employed capacity and this is only a facilitation to the next step.
As long as I am breathing I shall be learning and growing.
I have been getting up early to study my books and to take my tests before embarking on my current paid job and meeting my Trainer in the evenings and at weekends.
My Trainer told me this week he had not known another candidate in his time of Training who had progressed as much as me at this point in the syllabus which just goes to show if you want something, anything bad enough it is possible.
On the drive home this song came on the car stereo. I was already buzzing but this heightened the intensity.
I thought ‘ahh this is a good one for a song list’ and it made me think. I wonder how much listening to Happy Music contributes to raising my vibration to a level that enables me to attract so much goodness in to my life?
If you have read my other posts you will know I have a habit of listening to YouTube and inspirational videos as I commute, travel, shop. An idea I stole from Ali Brown and I was listening to a Bob Proctor video the other day about becoming anything you desire and sometimes the information you already know packaged in a different way with a new eye catching bow, grabs you attention.
It was actually a guest speaker on the video who talked about this all prevailing energy that we have in this Universe which I have no doubt exists and the speaker said “This energy is everywhere 100% of the time and if it is everywhere 100% of the time it is in you 100% of the time.” Now I have read many times about going within, the power in you etc, etc but to hear it is in us 100%, 100% of the time. Really struck me. Yes, yes !! Available to call on whenever, where ever I need it to assist me in anything and everything I require. To facilitate the next step and the next and the next. What have we really got to fear? Really ???
What would give you such a good feeling of total ecstasy?
Have you asked yourself that lately. Are you living it? If not, what’s stopping you?
Dancing in the Street. Well not quite. As I mentioned previously I haven’t become that brave yet but I was laughing in the street today.
I listen to motivational material on my commute and the last two days I have listened to Les Brown. Not much else makes me spontaneously smile like Les Brown’s laugh. It is so infectious.
Yesterday Les suggested we keep a journal as we are given good ideas all the time but we don’t document them or act on them.
I resonated with this idea and as I keep my journals electronic via Evernote I immediately decided to make a special Evernote notebook for this purpose.
This morning Les said something that reminded me of an idea I had many years ago as I was graduating from college but never really ran with and then I had an idea that could potential reignite this the original idea. It was like popping candy going off in my head.
What Les said that gave me this feeling related to Les saying how we fail to notice the beauty in every day and step over it or literally crush it.
Later on I needed to walk into town and decided to pop in the earbuds and listen to more Les. Les’s infectious laughter and words often caused unexpected outbursts and I remembered to notice the beauty in our world as I stared up at the clouds and appreciate the blue sky in between. I spotted pigeons roosting in the rafters of a bridge that no one else probably saw, strange blobby things on the still bare winter branches. A beautiful ornate shop front I had never saw before and as I laughed unabandoned and smiled at every passer by that made eye contact I felt blissfully happy and I truly felt like dancing in the street.
As I graduated from University my final piece was all about taking time to notice the beauty in every day life as we rush around hectically and miss the lone poppy on a piece of waste land or a flower in the crack in the ground or an amazing vivid yellow van on a grey day.
As I listened to Les the weather outside my car was windy and wet as storm something or other whipped around my automobile but he reminded me as I walked to work once in equally inclement weather I saw written on the pavement the words “I’m Awesome” and I thought I should document these observations in photographic evidence on my phone and as I walked down the road, keeping my head down to protect it from the rain, still listening to Les there I saw it.
I was walking over the same stretch of pavement. You may think not odd. Same route to work everyday however parking is limited and out on the street. I haven’t parked on this street for several weeks but today there wasn’t any parking available where I have normally been aiming to park. Last night I was reading about do coincidences exist or is there more to it?
Hello Universe. This was no accident.
This is what I saw and thought no time like the present and back tracked on myself and got my phone out.
In reality we are ALL AWESOME but we forget the power within. Don’t forget to look for the beauty in everyday and remember your awesomeness 🙂
