Today 5 years ago was the Transition of the Man who literally changed my life Dr Wayne W. Dyer.
Reading one of his books on a bus on the way back from London after spending an incredible day in Tate Britain I read the words “Don’t Die with Your Music still in you” and the story behind it .
The next day I started my blog and if you have seen my website alisonkparsons.com they are featured on the home page and cover banner on my Facebook page of the same name.
Now that music can come in any shape or form but means just share your gift with the world 🌎 .
I was meant to be spending an evening with Wayne Dyer in London on the 1st of October 2015 at a Hay House event and I was in London when I learnt of his passing after a glorious bank holiday weekend and I was back there the next day for work and while in the hotel I watched Wayne’s film below “The Shift”.
I admit I cried, I cried for Wayne, I cried for not seeing him in person and I cried for myself because of a scene in the film as my heart ached because I was not fulfilling that part of myself.
I can thankfully say less than 2 years later that part was fulfilled and then some and then some.
I can thankfully say I know longer sense that loss and My Passion is for no one else to feel it and die with their music still in them and that’s why today in honour of Wayne I share the full version of the film with you and hopefully it inspires to share YOUR music with the world 🌍 xoxo
I can’t even remember the last time I posted on my blog ….. but that’s ok. I am acknowledging that, that is all part of the Experiment I am running on myself at the moment.
Several weeks ago I was feeling complete overwhelm over a circumstance. More so than I had done for a very long time but acknowledged that there was always some sense of anxiety in my gut recently and I was fed up of living like this.
Since Manifesting my own business last year there were certain pressures I believed were all part and parcel of being an entrepreneur. The uncertainty of clients, income, business development etc and my Personal Development had all become Business Personal Development.
Intense, Hustle, hustle, hustle. Hard work and lots of effort if you want to crush it. You can only be a success if you deprive yourself of Fun time for X amount of years.
If you spend time on Social Media then your are a loser and how do you expect your business to build but then saying you need to spend so much time on this type of Social Media and do this on Social Media or how do you expect your business to build but be aware of the algorithm changes or you might go to jail !!!!!!!!
Is your head hurting just reading this?
Thankfully that little Voice in my head (that we all have) said “Tomorrow have an LGLG day. Nothing major is going to happen if you let yourself have 24 Hours not focusing on the issue and just go with the flow and do what you enjoy.
Well something did happen. A Miracle !!
(Yet again) An effortless series of events happened and everything fell into place and the situation was sorted in less that 24 hours in fact.
At the same time a series of Materials came into my awareness that all connected together and keep on coming to me and one of the Sources came to me via MindValley.
I was made aware of the book “The Surrender Experiment” by Michael A. Singer and instinctively knew I had to read it and I couldn’t stop. I was addicted to it. It wasn’t what I was expecting but it showed me how everything can fall in to place when we remove our resistance and go with the flow. The book (for me) started out with the author just needing to get away from the negative chatter in his head and I thought ‘this sounds like the book for me’
As I mentioned several other materials came into my awareness and virtually all had the same message that suggests Meditation and Allowing.
Over the weekend my partner had subconsciously said a couple things that have stung but I remembered a quote that really stuck with me from the film with Oprah Winfrey in “A Wrinkle in Time” – “Find the Right Frequency and Have Faith” so now when anything causes a negative reaction or the Negative Monkey chatter starts I remind myself to let go and have Faith which I did when these remarks happened which were generally about their lack of Faith because what I am focusing on in their eyes hasn’t arrived “Like, Yesterday”
They are still in the “I will believe it when I see it mode” where I am in the “I will see it when I believe it” mode which incidentally is the title of the Wayne Dyer book that I got the phrase “Let Go and Let God” from.
So it was so funny that I picked this YouTube video above for my Morning Motivation whilst dressing that shows just what can happen when one person believes and the other person doesn’t. It was just what I needed to hear.
And again there is a lot of Material in this video that aligns with the Experiment I am practicing on myself at the moment.
Remember “There Are No Accidents” and have a Let Go Day. After you have Meditated of Course. Because when you Meditate and Align All Things Are Possible
I had a habit of listening to inspiring information on my commute to work that I adopted from Ali Brown and made 21st century as Ali’s version was listening to Anthony Robbins cassettes via a walkman on the subway and mine was listening to YouTube video’s via the app on my smart phone.
Now that I work from home I am still listening to inspiring video’s but on my smart TV whilst dressing in the morning and this was one I was listening to the other day.
I love anything Michael. His voice is like hot chocolate sauce on your soul but this video I especially loved and it had an exercise in it that I stopped what I was doing to practice it. In the exercise your are asking questions of what the Universe is trying to express through you and my answers were as follows.
1. Love everyone
2. Practice tolerance
3. Bless everyone and everything that tests that tolerance
So every time I found myself making a judgement of any one or thing, however simple in my head and sometimes verbally I would say “Bless you”. Bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you.
Ok it did feel a little forced but it also helped me a) feel better and b) highlight how many judgements I make randomly without even realising it when I already think I am a loving, tolerant person.
What instigated this blog post was that in light of recent events I was finding a neighbour challenging. They have been knocking on my door daily as they are chasing the status of replacement item for their house.
My partner is a self employed trades person and our neighbour has adopted him as their personal handyman and knocked at our door randomly late on Sunday evening explaining that an item in their home has a slightly rusty fitting. It’s not broken, they just want it replaced for aesthetic reasons but they keep knocking everyday asking if he has sourced the part and when he is going to fit it.
I keep telling them that he is very busy and he is working daily away from town and when he returns the merchants is closed but he is trying his best but it falls on death ears and to them their whole world appears to revolving around this item and they keep knocking very anxiously.
They are not a client, he never asked to be their self appointed handyman but that doesn’t stop them acting like they are his number one priority yesterday when they knocked and I watched them walk away and then turned to reenter my home slightly bewildered that people have been mercilessly killed and families have lost loved ones and to my neighbour this is their number one priority in the world I found myself saying “Bless Her!”
I stopped in my tracks. I just blessed her subconsciously and didn’t have to remember or force myself to say it. It just happened naturally.
I liked that it came naturally. I like that appears to be becoming a habit and then I wondered is this situation the Universe testing me and my ability to be more tolerant and loving?
If this is the case the Universe also likes to joke as the same person that I am writing about just knocked on my door at 08:30am in the morning to ask if my partner is coming to fit the item tonight and I tried to tell them he is working very later tonight and can’t see them fitting it as when they finally get home they will feel done in and ready for their evening meal but they have asked to take my number so they can call me later to check just in case he is coming to fit it they will make sure they are home. Instead of getting frustrated I smiled and guess what ….. I blessed her.
Blessing people feels so much better in my soul than getting annoyed.
I felt compelled to pick up a Dr Wayne Dyer book up the other day and read it randomly (but there is no random in the Universe) and what I read was astounding but that is another blog post but it reminds us what loving people can do to the world and what being negative does to us. So I am blessing the blessing.
My WordPress appears to be having a ‘Brain Fart’ Sorry heard that analogy recently and it tickled my sense for humor 🙂
I nearly didn’t do a happy song list today due to what I have just mentioned as my WordPress appears to be publishing some of my lists on random days that don’t relate to pub date and made me question should I continue?
However I have had some likes to recent published lists so I thought I will continue as I ‘like’ the thought that the music I hear and like may have a positive effect on someone else. I was also aware that I may not always have the time to write a post everyday as I have a busy time coming up. I also hear songs in the car etc that make me happy and are not necessarily from the first three of the day which is having the habit of duplicating anyway so I might randomize the list and the subject.
For instance due to an unforeseen sequence of events my partner and I ended up in a Frankie & Benny’s on Saturday night and they were playing quite loud Motown and 50’s music and it made me think how many Happy songs there were in the 50’s ie:
and reminded me that while I respect the artists for their vocal talent a lot of the music I hear in the car can be quite negative and spend a lot of time station hopping to find something more joyful or I opt for my ‘if all else fails’ that I have on a CD permanently in the car =
and while I was youtubing Tutti Frutti I came across this that made me smile and bring back happy memories of watching Elvis films with my dad
Kindness extended, received or observed beneficially impacts the physical health and feelings of everyone involved
Be aware that unkind thoughts weaken, and kind thoughts strengthen, your connection
both taken from Wayne Dyer’s “The Power of Intention”
My play lists that I have started adding are literally the first 3 songs that come up on my smart phone when I flip that little flippy thing you can do from the bottom of the screen and I press play and see what comes up. I let more play as I am making the coffee etc but thought the top three is enough to post. What are your “Happy Songs” that you start the day with or what is the sound track of your life?
Number 1. =Usher – Pop Ya Collar
Don’t let any one steal your crown or as I see it take your power today. You can eat it or throw it away. My advise throw it away.
No. 2 = Pharrell Williams – Happy
Just a classic. To me it never gets tiring. I can’t fail to be Happy when I hear this ….. or dance
No. 3 = Jimmy James & The Vagabonds – I’ll Go Where The Music Takes Me
Where ever you go or going today remember to do it to your own music or as Wayne Dyer would have said ‘Dance to the beat of your own drum’. I know the more authentic I am being to me and when I tap in to the power that is in me and within all of us everything just glides across the dance floor of life effortlessly like Fred Astaire
Normally when I go to London I quite happily accept that the London way is bustle, bustle, push and push, especially on Tubes.
I was there this week and I have to admit it was slightly disconcerting at 08:30 in the morning after just arriving as you are getting off a tube and heading towards an escalator and hundreds off people were heading towards you coming off of escalators like a rampaging bull – Mumma !!!
With plenty of time I stood to one side and all was well, I wasn’t stampeded.
The following morning and my last day in London I waited patiently like I normally do and observed when even a short women desperately trying to get her child to school pushed passed my place in the tube ticket terminal queue by lifting my arm up and forcing her child through followed by herself and never even acknowledged my presence. Guess that’s how it has to be every day to get on with your day the London way, or is it.
Later that day I was more on deadline myself to get to on two different tubes to get me to Paddington station for my Train home. As the tube approached and it appeared full and not wanting to be in my usual situation where by everyone pushes past me and I am either doing the impression of a sardine with my face impressioned against the glass of the tube door or even worse pressed up against someones smelly armpit and as sometimes happens, actually left still standing on the platform I needed to rethink my approach.
I took a step closer to the train and then another step closer. I hadn’t pushed past anyone I had literally stepped forward in alignment from where I was previously stood and waited for the doors to open and the passengers to alight but I was ready, once the last person alighted I was in.
I was in perfect alignment with the train door and as I stepped up on to the Train a voice from the side of me said ‘There is no need to push”. How ironic I thought. I don’t think I have ever heard anyone speak to each other on a tube, they very rarely make eye contact and the first time I try a bit of dog eat dog boom I get the one person with the moral compass to speak out.
I had just been on a course where it spoke about Parent, Child, Adult how to react in situations or how we normally react instinctively.
I looked at the young man looking smug and smiling to himself and I felt compelled to reply to his comment. Calmly I pointed out that I am not local but whenever I come to the ‘Big Smoke’ (I didn’t actually use that terminology) due to my polite nature I am normally left standing on the platform whilst everyone else pushes passed me and today I thought I would change my tact and follow the London way. He replied it wasn’t the London way and words just fell out of my mouth and told him it was how it was every time I came here.
The conversation ended and everyone else appeared to adopt the normal stance of no eye contact, no speaking and normal service resumed.
I did however after have, maybe the weirdest thought “How would have Wayne Dyer handled that?”
The following morning I was not in work and had the luxury to do what I wanted and following advise from Oprah posted in regards to Thanks Giving chose some inspirational material to listen to before getting out of bed.
In the video Wayne practised kinesiology on one of the crew and I knew instantly what Wayne would have done and I knew what I would do if I had that experience over or in future.
If I had the situation over again I would have reverted to type and not stepped forward in the first place and waited calmly and patiently and avoided the whole situation and that thought felt right, felt good, felt like who I am and the essence of me.
This process of how thought affects the body as practiced through kinesiology in the Video stuck with me and how your body reacts via love and how it reacts via hate and revenge, I only wanted to think thoughts of LOVE and I set myself an experiment to go about my day and despite however anyone behaved I would always revert my thought back to LOVE.
I had to pay two separate visits to a supermarket and I was no angel. When I stood to one side to let people pass and they didn’t even acknowledge me it initially crossed my mind ‘What am I invisible here?’ but then I reminded myself think thoughts of love, think thoughts of love if only for your own best interests.
When queuing to get out of the car park and a man aggressively pulled out from behind someone else and tried to force his way into to the queue I was in I physically felt myself pull forward as did the guy in front of me as to try to stop him. I, then realising what I was doing relaxed and started letting people out one by one in front of me. I turned the music up on my car radio and thought ‘The longer I am here the more I get to enjoy these tunes’.
I checked the time it took to get out of the car park after letting several people out and it was 7 minutes in total. Not much in the grand scheme of things and I was far happier and calmer than the majority of people I recalled coming in to contact with throughout my day.
That’s why I feel I am and can relate to the ‘Happiest Penguin Ever’
We all have a choice and the power to attract in to our day the best experiences regardless of the situations or other poples reactions.
Have a great weekend and lets all be happy Penguin’s
This is not my normal LOA post, this fell out of me on my Evernote page this morning when instinct told me to write down something I called the Procreation Myth that came back to me before I forgot it and then after it all fell out of me instinct said blog it so here I am laying myself raw:
All along growing up I had a feeling inside that I wasn’t like everyone else around me. I didn’t want to get married and have babies. I wanted a career. I wanted independence. I wanted to work in London, buy my own home, on my own. I wanted t travel alone and I was pretty determined that would be the case and visualised myself power dressed, carrying a portfolio and returning to my one bedroom contemporary apartment and planned to go to college and then University.
Life gave me crossroads and threw up other options because I wasn’t aware at the time I was throwing thoughts out there and wasn’t aware of the power of my own thoughts and how they brought those crossroads to my door and gradually somewhere inside of all of that the Procreation Myth was whispering in my ear and lack of confidence in myself and the need to please I allowed myself to put my authenticity to one side, my voice, my desires, my dreams and goals and here I was despite so much wanting a different vision. Unhappily married with 3 children that I loved and hated at the same time.
It is important to say that I didn’t hate them for a second as individuals and now I have written it I didn’t hate them at all I hated myself for being someone I planned so hard not to be. A mother. I was probably berating myself without even hearing it but what I was probably saying to myself when I found being a mother sooooooooo hard was “You idiot, how did you get here? This is not what you planned stupid”
I heard people saying how fulfilling being a mother was and how joyous their children were and this only added to my inner turmoil because this led to more self loathing. “You’re right, you shouldn’t have not been a mother, how did you let yourself get here? You suck at this. You should have never let this happen, they are happy because that is what they were meant to be, you’re struggling because it wasn’t the plan and it wasn’t a plan for you for a reason. It was a message to stop you having kids because you suck at it and you were designed for something else but you failed and you bought in to the procreation myth.
The Procreation Myth is as I see it written below:
It is not until you get married you realise to didn’t need too
It is not until you have babies you realise you didn’t need them
I wrote the procreation myth late one night whilst I was alone. Which was pretty much all the time, while my husband was away and the kids were in bed and in a way writing it was a relief. It was an acknowledgement that yes we don’t need too but most of us don’t question it.
I wrote that over 20 years ago and two things have changed since then and actually one as I write these words.
I am so grateful I live in this time and I express my gratitude almost everyday. So much has changed in that 20 years where evolution is concerned and the equality in the world. To some it may not appear that way but if we stop to analyse the evidence not just in the area of being a women but so many people are free to express themselves as who they truly are and the ability to be their authentic selves on the public forum instead of a stilted silent wish inside their heads and the evidence is also there almost daily if we look for it as teenage women in oppressed counties stand up and say I want an education, I don’t want to marry that person, I don’t want to be mutilated because of some archaic belief that is not relevant, I love this person and actually I do want to marry them and have children with them even if they are the same-sex as me and more and more each day in more and more places that is being accepted as the norm and more and more each day in more and more places that will become the norm as we become more aware.
Awareness is a magnificent gift, rather than blind acceptance and what I have become aware of as I write these words that are just flowing through me is that maybe something at a higher vibration than my physical presence was guiding me along in to the procreation myth because whilst it was hard at the time I cannot think of anything more joyous than my children and my now grandchildren and if I hadn’t struggled in my now long dead marriage or struggled with motherhood I wouldn’t be reaping the harvest now – as my Dearest now departed Wayne Dyer so eloquently pointed out in his book “I Can See Clearly Now”.
Travelling back from somewhere yesterday I listened to Les Brown say when you step up it will be hard. It won’t be easy. Easy is staying where you are. Hard is changing that habit. Hard is stepping out of your comfort zone but it will be worth it.
We truly live in an age where nothing is impossible and everything is ‘Possible’ so go forth and live your authenticity loud and proud and if and when those saboteurs start speaking to you like mine did above we have sooooooooo many tools available to us at the touch of a button to help us to break those habits and break out of our comfort zones and find new ways of living.
That is a comment I said when someone replied to the comment I sent them.
A colleague that wasn’t currently in my office sent me a message saying good morning and asking how I was feeling?
I said I was fine and it was a beautiful day and they replied that the weather was horrible where they were and that it was pxxxing down.
I said the weather was rubbish where I was but the sun was shining in my head and it still is. I am buzzing off of life today and maybe somebody else in my position would be all fizzled out but buzzing I AM.
And if you knew why I was buzzing you may think I should be certified.
I am – certifiably joyous.
Before I got up I said my gratitudes and I said my new gratitudes that I blogged about recently. Saying thank you in advance for something that is not yet visible/physical but I know it is done because it is done literally the second you have the thought.
I was happily tootling along to work in my car listening to Tony Robbins when I saw something that made me scream.
I have this strange theory that when I see my initials in a car registration that is a hello from the Universe and a message that everything is ok and on track. See certifiable !!
It used to be seeing Birds of Pray but now it is car regs as I asked the Universe for a message of seeing my initials in a car plate would be the thumbs up that everything is working out A Ok and of course the Universe obliged and I expected it to be a one time event but if anyone has read Pam Grouts E:squared and you know the Volkswagen Jetta experiment if you choose Volkswagen Jetta’s, butterflies, purple feathers boom boom boom they will literally appear everywhere.
For me I chose Butterflies as one item but then chose to postpone my experiment as I was about to fly to Paris and despite postponing the experiment a butterfly landed on my airer whilst I was hanging washing out to wear to Paris (I had also just listened to Wayne Dyer talking about his book Inspiration so when the butterfly landed on the airer I nearly fainted but you would have to read the book or listen to the same video as I did on YouTube to understand why).
When I got to Paris within 5 minutes of leaving the Hotel we walked down the street and I saw butterflies on printed window voile, then later on a scarf on a women walking passed me on the Champs-Elysees, another women was wearing butterfly earrings sat next to me in a restaurant so now seeing my initials is not a surprise but today the Universe excelled itself.
Everything single letter on the registration plate was my 3 letters repeated in the correct order and I was omg, omg, omg screaming omg. I saw this as the hugest thumbs up that what is not yet visible is about to be visible. I know, completely certifiable but if you are a follower of the Law of Attraction you know there are no accidents.
I got out of my car in the rain. Not bothered, to me the sun is shining. Initials on a car plate right. Why wouldn’t the sun be shining in my head???
I did walk with my head down to keep my hair and the rain out of my eyes and there in the rain soaked pavement I see something written.
Yes I am. Thank you very much !! But it doesn’t stop there. I have crossed a street everyday I go to work since May and I never noticed the name of the street “William Street’ and what does my certifiable head say “Will I?” “I AM’.
Don’t mean to take anything away from ‘Will.I.Am’ just saying I saw it as the question “Will I?” Yes I already AM.
Proper rampage of appreciation that put me so far in to the Vortex that when I was dealing with really challenging people I didn’t get spat out and I was still so on a high flying disc when I got home I had to blog about it.
If you see something that you feel inside is a thumbs up from the Universe that everything is A OK and puts you on a high flying disc and makes you feel you are walking down Synchronicity Street go with it however much it may make people think you are certifiable.
I don’t normally disagree with my peers and people who inspire me but I just saw this on social media and my brain said something slightly different.
I was listening to Wayne Dyer the other morning driving to work on YouTube, I must hastily add via earplugs and Wayne was talking about just by holding a particular book in your hands you will feel better without reading it and that Kinesiology proves it.
Just to prove I was only listening and not watching I was itching to know the book but couldn’t look. As Wayne went on and said more I knew it was the Tao Te Ching.
This may have inspired me when on Friday evening instincts told me to read both Pam Grout’s books right through again without doing the experiments and see what happens.
Almost immediately the Dude starting proving themselves but that is not why I am writing that situation here.
Starting to read E:squared again, I read that when we ask for something or for argument’s sake say “I would like to visit China” or date the David Beckham look a like, I must add I am not quoting Pam I am just translating what I read in to my perception but what I got from it was when we ask these kinds of things ‘Poof’, like rubbing Aladdin’s lamp – it is done.
It is just our focusing on the fact we can’t physically see it slows it down or delays it completely.
Before I saw the picture above I was journaling my excitement at what has happened in the few wee hours since just reading Pam Grout’s E:squared without even actually committing to the experiments.
Years and years and years ago early one Saturday morning I came across someone called the Barefoot Doctor and bought several of their books including one called ‘Manifesto’ and in it the Doctor warned you before you start practicing the advise there within ‘beware’ because once you do, watch out. Big things will happen. Life changing things and you may not see them at first but be the Universe will start moving furniture around and then bang !!!!!
This photo below is one of my favourite quotes and sums up what I am saying perfectly.
I have used Barefoot’s terminology ever since reading his books and when I see strange things happening I just go “OK furniture is being moved” and that is what I was journaling about and when I saw the picture saying “I Can and I Will’ but what I said was
Just now I literally wanted to burst in to tears because I had a perfect moment.
No I hadn’t won the lottery or been offered a million pound contract to sit at home and blog or, or, or.
I was just reminded that where I am right now is exactly where I am meant to be.
The other day I blogged about wanting to eat a shit sandwich and I nearly blogged a post called “Mind Your Language” and that was completely unrelated to what I am writing here …… or is it?
“Mind Your Language” was inspired about spending the weekend with loved ones and hearing them say habitual negative comments without even knowing but me knowing the power of the Universe and the power of our spoken and unspoken words how dangerous this can be.
Habitual comments about age, habitual self put downs etc.
“What do you expect, that’s bound to happen at my age” Bollocks !!!
“I have a terrible memory, there is nothing I can do about it” Bollocks !!!
“It’s easier to lose weight when you are young and harder when you are older” Bollocks
“Your trouble is you are to fussy, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, lower your standards” Bollocks. (This wasn’t aimed at me by the way).
Only if you buy into this crap and believe it.
I love my family and extended family but I know at this present moment in time there is no point in trying to explain the power of thought but the worlds coming around. I see evidence every day.
I heard not just once but several times from various different self-aware people “You become the sum of the 5% of the people you surround yourself with” advising to choose careful, be aware of this fact and not get drawn in or distance yourself from negative influences.
Right from the earliest age I felt isolated from my peers etc because I seemed to have different inspirations and aspirations and not much has changed but now we have the luxury of finding our crowd online so it doesn’t bother me what my 5% are because they bring so much more to the party that I love.
However I am still guilty of believing the hype, falling into the old patterns, not minding my language and bringing on a huge shit sandwich in my direction.
It probably started about 3 weeks back now but I wasn’t aware then that this gradual process of letting the negative mind worms gnawing at my brain was happening but the spiral really happened towards the end of last week when I went in to victim mode and joined in the negative party posse conversations.
Was I really expecting things to get better by doing this?
As the anxiety I was putting myself through grew I did try putting sticking plasters on it like listening to Dr Wayne Dyers ‘Erroneous Zones” audio on YouTube on the way to work. Reading motivational material and saying affirmations and asking for assistance from the infinite source and infinite part of me. Who knows how bad it would have got if I hadn’t done this but at the same time I was not minding my language and to the extend I was feeling sick with anxiety by Thursday afternoon.
Despite this I had asked the Universe for help with some topics and instinct said do this, this and this and the task I had to complete for that day went perfectly. One down only one to go. Well actually I am not giving myself credit because I was achieving tasks all the time and the fog was beginning to clear but all this really started to spiral the previous week when I missed a deadline and read an email a certain way and I let self-doubt begin to fester.
I wish it could be 6 months time and I had more knowledge, I wish I had the knowledge and experience of my peers, they are so much better than me. Why is it that I am working and working and keep running out of time? What am I doing wrong? I must be really crap at this? I’ve never failed in a role before, I wish I could win the lottery so I don’t have to be accountable to a boss, I wish I was self-employed so I could be my own boss. Welcome to my pity party.
On Monday I had found an invitation to a 121 with my boss for the Friday PM and immediately felt it was to berate me for my poor performance on the missed deadline completely forgetting the fact that this has been the most loving, fantastic supportive, motivational boss I have ever had and always felt inspired and energised after speaking to them. I wasn’t minding my language and letting self-doubt win and comparing myself to everybody else so no I couldn’t recall all these facts or previous interactions.
The reality was – none of the stuff I had imagined happened. None of the stuff I expected to get raised got raised and all the things that happened in our previous interactions happened and then some and there were reasons for the 121 that were completely unrelated and one of the main reasons was that my bosses boss who was the other person who interviewed me as well as my boss was concerned about a comment I had made that showed I had doubt in myself and they wanted to check I was OK and reassure me that I was OK and I knew this stuff and reminded me off all the things that I bring to the party that my peers who have been in the job longer don’t have and what an asset I am.
That’s not the perfect moment (even though it was pretty awesome). The prefect moment came after listening to the video I am going post below.
I was stood in my kitchen area in my partially completed house looking at the chaos that I usually hate with a coffee in my hand, wearing my partners dressing gown (not sexy at all but warmer than mine) not-self employed, not a millionaire blogger but it is OK. This is exactly where I am supposed to be at this point of time, I’m ok and things are working out perfectly.
As the video shows I am not alone in my recent feelings, sadly not even close to being alone but thankfully these days we have our Online Family with the right language to bring us back on track.
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