The other day I “accidentally” found the gift from God that is Elizabeth Gilbert.
I am having a girl crush with her. She says so much that makes sense and says it in a way that feels like I am literally having cream poured over my soul.
I could listen to her all day and all night just to hear her dulcet tones but have the added bonus of wisdom thrown in.
Her words to me just remind me that every one of us whilst actually being pieces of God and vessels as to channel that fact through have this constant battle with our physical selves that tell us that we are not worthy, what we do is not good enough, no-one will want to hear it or see it or read and I loved particularly the other day in the video that I posted that Liz openly admitted that her first book was not that good but hey it’s my first book it’s not going to be good.
She also talked of the pitfalls of perfectionism and how it stifles because we expect stuff to be perfect before we can share it – GUILTY !!
I was listening to Liz on a YouTube talk through my head phones before walking in to a particularly challenging day and that’s when I said to myself “This feels like Cream on my Soul” and then also thought ‘what if I screw up today, I’m new at this and I know I am trying my best and if I make a mistake to hell with it there are worse things going on in the world’
I also then remembered that I am a physical vessel for my non-physical self and the divine is in me all the time and there is nothing that I don’t have the answer to inside of me so how can it not go well? Bring it on !!
Last week I arrived in London at 5:30pm where I made a short tube journey to my hotel.
At first the tube was surprisingly clear when a smartly dressed young man got on looking frustrated and angry. Rather bizarrely to me whilst huffing and puffing to himself he started tossing old tube tickets over the floor of the tube. He also threw away a plastic Oyster card and someone handed it back to him thinking he had dropped it accidentally . He snapped at the kind commuter that it was rubbish.
The next station a man got on and if I am honest was scruffily dressed with a long grey pony tail carrying a guitar. Nievily I just assumed he was a musician on his travels.
He then started playing said guitar.
I was actually enjoying the impromptu performance but even more enjoyable/amusing was the way people acted like nothing was happening.
The tube got busier with ever stop and he kept on playing and people were squeezed in like sardines and I watched as people looked miserable and annoyed having to share the tube with busker but the busker however had a big smile on their face.
When the angry smartly dressed young man squeezed passed me to get off the tube he turned to a boy in school uniform and said “stay in school or you might end up like that” I thought it was quite cruel and uncalled for but I also thought ‘who had it made’ because the busker appeared far happier than Mr Suited and Booted.
I became aware of my first ‘self-help’ book in the 90’s when a mother I used to walk with to take our kids to school gave me a copy of “Feel The Fear and Do It Anyway” by Susan Jeffers.
We’d been talking about how our Ex’s were jerks and never wanted to see their kids or support them but actually I was relieved that mine lived a long, long, long way away now as our relationship was a lot more complicated than just that.
Not knowing at that point that our thoughts attract things I was blown away that, that evening I received a call from him and not in a good way. That’s why the friend offered me the book as she thought it may help me with my situation.
This book really did help me in so many ways and I recently bought an E version just to revisit why it had such a profound effect on me. From that book I read another and another because which ever book I was reading introduced me to another author and I was addicted.
However things didn’t change all that much in some areas and if they did, not for long until something clicked in me in 2010.
Now, I had been reading about the Law of Attraction in some gauze or another for over a decade but it wasn’t until I read a book in 2010 that the light bulb went on.
Recently I started to write a book and in it I mentioned that I heard that the teacher arrives when the student is ready and the very next day I heard Wayne Dyer say exactly the same thing in a YouTube interview I was listening to between Wayne and Tony Robbins.
That was certainly the case with Feel the Fear and shortly after reading that book I became aware of Louise Hay (A Goddess in my eyes). At the time I didn’t drive, there was no Amazon or eBooks and I used to either have to go to my local book store and order books or hop on a bus and travel the 11 miles (to the town I now work in and drive to every day) to find and purchase my next big fix.
I owe it all to Louise that I can now actually drive as it was visualising using the techniques in one of Louise’s books (with a seriously pulled quad muscle the night before my driving test) that I laid on the bed, closed my eyes and saw myself perform all the moves perfectly and indeed passed first time despite my muscle going in to a massive spasm as I tried to reverse around a corner.
The bingo moment in 2010 was when I read ‘The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne and what I realised was that the majority of the time I would read a book, think I had it all sussed and then go back to my normal day and get back in to my normal thought processes that I had manufactured inadvertently over many years and then nothing changed and it all looked bad again and I’d read another book and so the Merry Go Round continued.
What ‘The Secret’ had taught me that I hadn’t managed to gather from all the other amazing authors I had read previously were saying but I wasn’t ready to hear was “Repetition, repetition, repetition, repetition, repetition ….” I think you are getting what I got.
I would read a book and move on. Move on to another or move on with normal life but I wouldn’t put any effort or ‘put any skin in’ to actually putting what I had learn’t in to practice.
I love the old adage “Nothing Changes if nothing Changes” and I was certainly that person. Now I am not perfect but I put a lot more skin in these days than I did before and so much in my life has changed. Most importantly I am nearly always happy and optimistic these days and if I am not I find and use a ‘tool’ to remind me that ‘I’ and the Universe are unlimited, all giving and abundant.
Last night I sat in my favourite restaurant with some of my favourite people, eating astounding food and feeling extortionately grateful when somehow a conversation cropped up between the other three about what a mess the world is in. I sat silent, 1) knowing that at the moment they are not in a place to hear me if I said how I feel and 2) I know otherwise. The world is what we focus on and we need to focus on what we ‘Do’ want and not what we don’t want and we have to repeat, repeat, repeat focusing on it.
Only Joking that my work is done. I talk to much for that.
And talking of Joking. I have been reading a lot of how people are communicating with Wayne Dyer since his death and how Wayne loves to play games and tricks with people even from the energy form that Wayne is currently incarnated in to. I can relate to that.
I’m not saying it was Wayne but the Universe was certainly showing it had a sense of humour yesterday.
When I first had the ‘Law of Attraction’ lightening bolt in 2010 I still wasn’t the most positive of kittens (old thought patterns and all that) and I needed signs sometimes and reassurance that everything was going to be ok.
I can’t remember how it came about but I made a connection of seeing a bird of prey as a good sign and still, to this day still feel reassured when I spot one. (Yesterday I saw a Spitfire plane dip down from the clouds as I came home from work – not sure if that counts and I wonder if it is the same one that Prince Harry got to fly in? See I told you I talk to much 🙂 – ).
Recently I was having an unusual feeling of uncertainty and feeling a bit low and I needed a sign. I read once looking for signs shows a lack of Faith in the Universe so I am a bit adverse to asking for signs now because I am all about the Faith these days. Faith that the Universe is all giving and limitless and the only limitations are in our own minds but blow it I needed one.
Bizarre you probably think but I have also started to make an association to my initials on car registration plates as a ‘High’ from the invisible energy that is the infinite field so instinct said “OK Universe, if I see all 3 of my initials in a car number plate before I get off this Motorway/Highway I know that everything is going to be OK real soon” and sure enough just before I drove off at my junction there was the number plate.
Now I love my life and I enjoy my job, well more than enjoy but I still have aspirations and dreams of the next big thing and I am getting a little impatient, excited, anticipatory (somebody is going to see the Rocky Horror Live Stream from London soon, hence the anticipatory). Especially when I read about someone practically if not actually living my dream life so I asked for the number plate sign again. I have 100% Faith that it will happen, is happening in my Vortex but of my own admission I wanted to know how soon, is it soon? Are we there yet?, are we there yet? !!!
On the way to work this morning after asking I saw a few combinations and saw one car with two of the three and when I pointed out it was two not three a lorry pulled up next to the car making it all three. Nearly there but not quite.
When I got in my car after work a car had pulled in to the space that was left in front of me that morning and I noticed it was a foreign number plate and it had two of my initials. I don’t mind admitting I said out loud “It’s good but it is not all three” and promptly went to pull away when I noticed a sticker for the nationality of the car “P” for Poland and my missing initial.
I laughed out loud and said “OK very good Universe, you win. Very funny”.
Since watching Wayne Dyer’s film “The Shift’ again I have tried to adopt two practices 1) to ask each day ‘How may I serve” and 2) “Let go and let God”.
I constantly try to remind myself to let it go (I know asking for a sign is not entirely letting it go) because as humans if we try to “Do it” “Fix it” we are only focused on one possible solution but when we let go the Infinite Field of Intelligence is free to let what we want come to us from a myriad of possible ways. So to me, two initials on a number plate and one on a sticker very close to the number plate was still all three of my initials on one individual car and I am so excited now of how things are going to play out in the creation of the next big thing and gives me an excuse to add in my favourite photo of my favourite quote – Remember ..
Today on Social Media I saw an article about there being a New Moon and partial eclipse on the 13th of September 2015 and what times it was going to happen around the world. The article read of how this was going to instigate a huge change in the world and I did set an alarm in my phone to ensure I woke up to see it. But not because I was hoping for it to instigate a change in my life but just because I would like to witness something if possible because I know we can change any moment we choose as many times as we choose.
I won’t take credit for having this feeling because it has only come in to my understanding from the many books I have read and audio’s and videos I have watched and listened to but prior to that change used to terrify me and now I embrace it as one of the certainties in life.
If you story doesn’t work for you Divorce it
Said during a Oprah Masterclass with Tony Robbins
I always hold Louise Hay and Colonel Sanders stories in the forefront of my mind so when I saw this photo above, the other day on social media I instantly saved it.
I have read numerous times that Colonel Sanders idea of his Southern Fried Chicken was rejected over a thousand times before he was accepted (and I am sure that he would have kept going another thousand if his idea wasn’t picked up then) but it stuck with me on the first read and only helped to reaffirm to me on every other read ‘Don’t ever give up’ on your dreams, goals etc.
A few other successful people who we probably just see as successful and not realise that it wasn’t that easy are Walt Disney, turned down 302 times before receiving financing. J K Rowling a single mum turned down by 12 publishing houses and the other day during a Training session when asked what year did ‘Gone with the Wind’ win its Oscar my colleagues looked surprised when I instantly walked to the correct year without hesitation and before anyone in the room even moved because I knew from all the material I keep reading it was dismissed by 38 publishers before taken up.
So if you think you are stuck or you life sucks or you haven’t achieved something you wanted to achieve or you are to old think of Louise or the Colonel. Don’t wait for an Eclipse. Do it now. Do it in your next breath and if you don’t like your story – Divorce it because as Esther/Abraham Hicks says –
“You can never get it wrong and you can never get it done”
And I dare you to listen to Sam below and not get Goosebumps 🙂
I saw this picture on Facebook asking for people to make a comment.
I loved my internal instinctive response.
“I don’t care what people thought”
How liberating is that?
I have to admit I haven’t always felt that way and contribute my response to my love of the Law of Attraction and desire to always learn and self expand otherwise I may have jumped in there and subjected myself to the self-torture.
Talking of self-torture, I cannot be alone can I? In my lack of interest in TV Programs like Master Chef and the Great British Bake off to name a few can I?
You may not be familiar with Bake off but Master Chef is pretty well spread (pardon the pun) I believe because even in passing I am aware there is a Australian and American version.
Why I cannot partake in this viewing frenzy is because it would be painful for me to watch people cook or bake or paint or draw or sew or a plethora of other tasks and see them stand there agonising while they await the approval (or non-approval) from another human being (not God) to tell them if their efforts are good enough.
Why traumatise your self for another persons opinion? And that is all it is an opinion or more to the point. A perception.
While one person may think their cake is the best thing they have ever tasted since sliced bread the other doesn’t like it because they are not a fan of oranges,
All day every day we are perceiving things we see, hear, touch or taste and there could be a hundred different people hearing or seeing the same thing and have a hundred different perceptions so why do we seek approval? Or more importantly why should we?
Everything we do should be an inside out job not an outside in.
I know there are many, many, many more sad situations in the world than this one but one of the saddest things I every saw was when I watched a program about an Art Gallery here in the UK. Now I love all things Art so I tuned in and the program was about submitting Art to the Royal Academy Summer show and it featured a few people and followed their journey as they prepared and submitted their works and awaited the email/letter that spelt joy or pain.
One man to my perception produced beautiful work and had submitted year after year without success and until the Academia’s approved his submission he could not or would not see himself as an actual artist. To me that was heart breaking. What a waste of potential or possibilities.
Now I originally started this post last week when the beautiful Dr Wayne W. Dyer was still alive and I actually was inspired to start this WordPress account and my blog whilst reading one of Wayne’s incredible books on a coach back from London after being in Tate Britain all day and viewing J. M. W Turner’s paintings who is and is classed as, one of the worlds best artists and was once laughed at and ridiculed when his work was first displayed in the RA and it was reading in this book about how Wayne was handed a book by his uncle just before he went into the army and Wayne learnt about the life of Ivan Ilyich who on his death-bed asked his wife (who he spent his life despising and resenting) “What if my whole life has been wrong?”
In that same book Wayne said “don’t die with your music still in you”and that was he clincher. I had been writing practically daily but to scared to put it out there in the world for fear of reprisal and ridicule but after reading that I didn’t want to be an Ivan either.
So please in honour of the gorgeous soul that is Wayne Dyer don’t worry what any one else thinks and don’t die with your music still in you.
I have been out of the blogging, Law of Attraction loop for quite a while now and knew it was time to dip my toe again.
I haven’t been down or in a bad place. Quite the contrary. I have been in a really good place. A new job and another holiday in my now beloved Crete visiting the Island Spinalonga whilst reading ‘The Island’ by Victoria Hislop but now I am back and have finished the book on the plane back and I am ready.
I am ready for a new adventure, or ready to continue to achieve a desired adventure.
I love the work of Pam Grout and reading Pam’s blog always puts me back on track and in a really good place. A place that feels like home so this morning I dipped my toe.
I wasn’t sure how far back it was since I read her blog and I always feel I am missing out on something delicious if I don’t devour every entry so I googled her page and went back until I recognised something familiar. When I saw something unfamiliar I started reading but as it happened I had read it but a second read was just what I needed today.
There was a scenario of an exchange student entering a Hotel room for the first time with a radio left playing in the room by the maid. The student found the music not to their choice but not ever coming across a radio before didn’t know how to change the channel and what Pam was saying is that we usually stay on our channel when at any given second we can change it to another and another and another.
Recently visiting my parents my Dad told me how a relative whilst enquiring on mine and my sisters welfare made a derogatory comment and my Dad told me of his response.
My Dad told them that we were both well and both had new jobs and the relative replied in more detail than I am putting here “More new jobs?
I have blogged about how I was excited about a big change coming because I could feel it and dissatisfied with my job I listened to a Louise Hay YouTube audio I found on my commute to inspire me that I could find a new job and then a set of circumstances arose and it happened. Then my Mum told me that my sister who was unhappy in her job felt that her age was against her ever finding a new job and I told Mum to tell her please, please don’t believe that and not to give up trying and then a job literally fell in to her lap.
My Dad replied to our relative in his response to our new jobs that he was very proud of both of us. He said he knew of people who spent well over 30 years plus in jobs they hated and moaned every day about them but never had the courage to change them and he was proud that we acknowledged we weren’t happy and had enough self-respect for ourselves to get out there and find something better. Go Dad !!
And I feel this fitted in well with Pam’s Blog post we can either stay on the same channel or change it at any time for a myriad of other channels.
I have had people ask me what kind of music I like and surprised at my response because they pigeon-hole me because of the way I look but some days I like Rock and Roll, some days I am in the mood for classical, club or cheese – I like a lot of cheese, cheese makes me happy and car dance, chair dance and recently sun-bed dance.
Recently I changed my channel and changed my job and I like my job but I also like Channel hopping and seeing what new and exciting opportunities are out there because that’s who I am and I am proud I am a Channel hopper and now I know my Dad is proud I am a Channel hopper.
Are you a Channel Hopper or have you forgotten you have the ability to change Channels at any given second???
I have been so gorgeously busy I haven’t had time to blog but the Law of Attraction hasn’t stopped and now I am starting to feel a bit more Ahhhh I am trying to get my normality back.
My normality is reading all stuff LAO, listening to inspiring material to and from work and journal and blog etc.
Because I haven’t been doing these normal things the Universe has been showing off big time as if to say “Hello remember me !!”
The other day I had a text message that my mother-in-law required my passport number for our up and coming holiday. Now I always keep them in the same place but mine wasn’t there. I started searching and the more I looked and hadn’t found it I felt I was running out of options and I became more and more anxious forgetting my constant connection to the Universe. Eventually I saw a great big fat “STOP” sign in front of my consciousness and I was reminded of the greatness that we are ALL ALWAYS connected to.
Over time, more and more I have believed in the “Ask and it is Given” philosophy. Believe because I have so many demonstrations that it is true so I stopped and asked for help in finding my passport but I also put a time deadline on it because the info was required ASAP.
I’ve read about this before but not really adopted it but this time I gave the deadline of 7pm the following evening.
The following day a series of events happened when I received a text from my partner saying he had found my passport and this was hours before my deadline so I felt the Universe was showing off.
There has also little things like seeing a car I desire and wonder why everyone I see is a 4 door version and when I designed my car on-line I designed a 2 door version and a short time later a 2 door version went passed. Not only a 2 door version but it had a number plate of M100 PMA and I translated it in to “My 100% Positive Mental Attitude”. You might be thinking ‘Yeah Right’ but I once read that the Universe is communicating to us 24/7 and if you have a strong feeling about something regardless how bizarre you think it is, it is a message. In my crazy little world I squealed with excitement.
Recently I thought how my partner had talked about renovating our bedroom but then never mentioned it again and I thought how nice it would be to do some work on our house to modernise it and less than 24 hours later he offered me two options for my birthday present and one was renovate the bedroom. That’s another reason I have been gorgeously busy as I have working on my new wonderful fulfilling work (check previous blog post) and then in the evening working flat out with my partner on our completely reformed bedroom beautiful luxury bedroom. Maybe a little ungrateful but enjoying the results so much I fantasised about getting the whole house finished (which has been a work in progress since 2003) but my partner has always dismissed my ideas then several hours later after having the thought he brings up the subject and says he’s considering talking to his builder friend to come and give us an estimate to at least give us a ball park figure to play with and even explained how he had been planning to raise the money.
Yesterday I noticed how a neighbour had had there whole frontage done in a patterned concrete and thought how cool it looked and how nice it would be to have it. Tonight there was a knock at the door and it turned out my partner had requested the guys doing this task to come to our house and give us a quote.
Now this is almost scary how I have a random thought and with almost lightning speed it manifests but the real miracle was when I ask the Universe to help not myself but my partner.
I have seen information previously that you can’t influence others but seeing my partners anxiety over a subject that he faced I asked for help for him and this issue. Later that day he called to see what time my train was coming in and then added guess what and he told me a series of events that had happened that day and not only was his concern resolved there was a cherry on top from a totally unexpected source that made the situation sit totally in the comfort zone and I can’t express how happy this made me feel. Even more happy than my own personal manifestations.
Don’t forget to notice the LOA’s happening in your own life then revel in the perfection in them however crazy you think you are for acknowledging them and always show you gratitude but lastly ask “How Does it Get Better Than This?” (a reference from Dr Dain Heer’s book ‘Being you, Changing The World’) because then you encourage the momentum of more magnificent, manifestations to appear.
For a long time I have focused on stories about people finding success in later life. I especially focus on this when I am struggling, feeling like giving up or angry at myself for not achieving certain things after all these years and thankfully I hardly do any of the latter more and more infrequently.
Tonight I was happy to see a magazine program having a section on people who had found success later in life.
Sea Sick Steve was on the program and he said he was actually happy that he didn’t find success until later life. Steve in now 66.
There was also a lady who had a dream about buying Caribbean baby food and the dream was still with her on waking and realised that she couldn’t buy Caribbean baby food so started a business and another lady who as a child ran home in joy to tell her mother a joke she had learned. Her mother told that she shouldn’t use those words and so closed her mind to her dream of telling jokes however now at 77 she is a stand up comedian.
The other day and almost every day since I have listened to a Louise Hay audio version of ‘I Can Do It’.
The first time I heard it something made me go whoa !! Louise suggested that on the eve of your 49th birthday see it as an infancy to a new life.
In just over a month it’s my birthdate. Read that again.
I said birthdate not birthday because in just over a month I am 49 so I am about to be born (again).
My body might not be as slim as I wish and when I look at my face in a magnifying mirror first thing in the morning I may sometimes withdraw rather rapidly and go “Whoa easy Tiger” as I see some of the lines around my eyes but I do not partake in the self talk that some people around me engage in (that are often younger than me) about feeling old or I can’t do A, B or C now that I am this old. Or since I turned 30,40 etc …..
My body doesn’t feel any different now than it has ever done.
Next week I do plan to start trying to eliminate sugar from my diet after reading Amelia Freer’s book ‘Eat, Nourish, Glow’ and Bruce Lipton’s blog and the effects it has on our body and the proven effects on improving your diet has on your gene’s and I want to find time to do more Yoga again but this to me is just common sense and not an obsession of ‘Oh I am getting older’ …
Because as I said I am about to be reborn but in fact we get the chance to be reborn everyday …… when we wake up.
Everyday is an opportunity to start again. Change your thoughts, break old negative non productive belief patterns, decide to be happy instead of sad, forgive someone, love more. The list is endless and joyous.
I am so excited right now.
What are you going to wake excited about tomorrow?
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