“Here is one thing I know for sure – Gratitude is the single most important spiritual practice”
Oprah Winfrey
My First Ever Regret
Long before I learnt of self-help books or The Law of Attraction or amazing people like Louise Hay I thankfully was able to look at every painful experience in my life and be able to be grateful.
I was able to look at the events and evaluate if I hadn’t gone through that I wouldn’t have that or learnt that or experienced that or grown into the person I AM to today so when talking to people about their experiences I would say “I do not have any regrets, I am glad I had that experience because …………………”
Learning about ‘The Law of Attraction’ in 2010 (at the time of one of most painful experiences) and all the books and audio’s etc I have listened to since have only enhanced my ability to see gifts wrapped in sandpaper as Lisa Nichols would say however over the last few days I am truly struggling to get a handle on my current experience and find the gift or try to convince myself I am not full of regret.
Despite my inability deep, deep, deep down there is an inner knowing that I Am being Divinely Led.
In January this year I was laying in bed when I received an email that Wayne Dyer was coming to London in October 2015.
“Oh, oh, oh” I chirped !!
My partner asked what was it?
“Wayne Dyer is coming to London. He is my most favouritest author. I have more books by Wayne than any other author and he is truly the most effective person I have read. I would just love to see him”
Surprisingly my partner replied negatively saying what was the point. It didn’t work. Asking questions like if it works, Where was my money? Why was I in a job I hated? etc, etc?
This was not a normal response from him and it hurt me physically both by the voracity of his words and there contents.
He’s very money driven and when I apply for a job it is always what’s the salary, have you asked for a pay rise and for evidence reasons to know something is working he needs to see things NOW, now, now or it isn’t working.
Despite not having the current evidence in his eyes I knew like I knew that I am the ‘Master of My Fate’. I had already had so many experiences that we are literally the creators of our own realities that everything else I desire and usually far, far better was non-physical and would be physical in no uncertain terms.
However I am currently physical with as well as non-physical and annoyance raised in me. I was determined to go and secretly treated myself to a late Christmas present ticket.
Now I am not usually a secretive, deceitful person but due to the conversation and the circumstances that I bought my ticket I never found the right moment to say that I had bought a ticket etc then the Universe played it’s part and as part of my new job (that I love) Training that I was meant to be going to next week had been cancelled and there was an available date in London on October 1st. The date I had booked annual leave to see Wayne. Initially I declined but then instinct said ‘Wow there Tiger’ and I back tracked.
I journalled at the amazingness of the Universe. I could travel to London with work, do the Training and then see Wayne Dyer in the evening and as October drew closer I was getting so excited at the prospect of being in the same room as this amazing man and experience the energy.
I was in London at the weekend when I dipped into Facebook just before going to sleep after an amazing experience of spending the evening at the top of the Shard watching the sun go down and the lights come on. I was in rapture of how blessed I am in my life, of another experience to tick off my ‘Live List’ and then my heart stopped in disbelief.
No this cannot be real. What I am reading. I knew I had to read it again but at the same time I didn’t want to because that would make it real while right now it was a misunderstanding. But no it was true. Our beloved teacher had passed. So close, so, so, so close but now not even far. Impossible.
At this present time it is hard to comprehend how I have gone through, I believe Divinely led experiences to achieve being able to see Wayne Dyer to now not being able to feel this mans wonderful presence and how I cannot regret not being able to have that experience.
Probably like most people I have committed to rereading Wayne’s books and watch the film The Shift again to add value to my life even more and live on purpose but I feel bereft. I feel like I was about to have a catch up with an old friend and that has been snatched away from me. When I hear Wayne’s voice I feel physical pain in my chest and tear up. Because I never actually told my partner I had bought my ticket and I am feeling this way I am experiencing my grief alone.
I don’t like being deceitful and don’t intent to do it again and I will have to share my truth soon as I have received an email that they are still holding the event as a Tribute to Wayne Dyer and Anita Moorjani is going to one of the guest speakers whose wonderful book “Dying to Be me” I read as a recommendation by Wayne and I have already booked my Hotel room to attend and I want to be able to share that experience.
Social media is full of just how a profound effect Wayne Dyer had on so many with all the tributes that it contains and one of the things I read that struck me most was reading that Wayne is with all of us now, all at once, all of the time.
Since learning of his passing some very strange Wayne Dyer related synchronicites have happened that have literally given me goosebumps like I have never experienced before and I have witnessed the pattern emerging. The mention of Maslow’s Higheracy of needs popping into the most random of conversation being one of them and if you have read Wayne Dyers books you’ll realise the relevance and these little things make me smile and remind me how miraculously the Universe works and that we are all truly connected, truly one.
Since starting this post I read how Wayne’s daughters recently drove his car and ‘I can see clearly now’ came on the radio. I felt like mentioning my observations but hesitated thinking I was reading to much into it and then I saw this picture
Thank you Wayne.
Like most people I have decided to read Wayne’s books once more and the other night I watched ‘The Shift’
I took two things away that I agreed with myself to adopt every day
- Let go and let God
- Ask ‘How may I serve’
Thank you our Master, Our Teacher. I Am grateful that I lived in your time even if I didn’t physically meet you.
Approval Not required
I saw this picture on Facebook asking for people to make a comment.
I loved my internal instinctive response.
“I don’t care what people thought”
How liberating is that?
I have to admit I haven’t always felt that way and contribute my response to my love of the Law of Attraction and desire to always learn and self expand otherwise I may have jumped in there and subjected myself to the self-torture.
Talking of self-torture, I cannot be alone can I? In my lack of interest in TV Programs like Master Chef and the Great British Bake off to name a few can I?
You may not be familiar with Bake off but Master Chef is pretty well spread (pardon the pun) I believe because even in passing I am aware there is a Australian and American version.
Why I cannot partake in this viewing frenzy is because it would be painful for me to watch people cook or bake or paint or draw or sew or a plethora of other tasks and see them stand there agonising while they await the approval (or non-approval) from another human being (not God) to tell them if their efforts are good enough.
Why traumatise your self for another persons opinion? And that is all it is an opinion or more to the point. A perception.
While one person may think their cake is the best thing they have ever tasted since sliced bread the other doesn’t like it because they are not a fan of oranges,
All day every day we are perceiving things we see, hear, touch or taste and there could be a hundred different people hearing or seeing the same thing and have a hundred different perceptions so why do we seek approval? Or more importantly why should we?
Everything we do should be an inside out job not an outside in.
I know there are many, many, many more sad situations in the world than this one but one of the saddest things I every saw was when I watched a program about an Art Gallery here in the UK. Now I love all things Art so I tuned in and the program was about submitting Art to the Royal Academy Summer show and it featured a few people and followed their journey as they prepared and submitted their works and awaited the email/letter that spelt joy or pain.
One man to my perception produced beautiful work and had submitted year after year without success and until the Academia’s approved his submission he could not or would not see himself as an actual artist. To me that was heart breaking. What a waste of potential or possibilities.
Now I originally started this post last week when the beautiful Dr Wayne W. Dyer was still alive and I actually was inspired to start this WordPress account and my blog whilst reading one of Wayne’s incredible books on a coach back from London after being in Tate Britain all day and viewing J. M. W Turner’s paintings who is and is classed as, one of the worlds best artists and was once laughed at and ridiculed when his work was first displayed in the RA and it was reading in this book about how Wayne was handed a book by his uncle just before he went into the army and Wayne learnt about the life of Ivan Ilyich who on his death-bed asked his wife (who he spent his life despising and resenting) “What if my whole life has been wrong?”
In that same book Wayne said “don’t die with your music still in you” and that was he clincher. I had been writing practically daily but to scared to put it out there in the world for fear of reprisal and ridicule but after reading that I didn’t want to be an Ivan either.
So please in honour of the gorgeous soul that is Wayne Dyer don’t worry what any one else thinks and don’t die with your music still in you.
Go Dad
I have been out of the blogging, Law of Attraction loop for quite a while now and knew it was time to dip my toe again.
I haven’t been down or in a bad place. Quite the contrary. I have been in a really good place. A new job and another holiday in my now beloved Crete visiting the Island Spinalonga whilst reading ‘The Island’ by Victoria Hislop but now I am back and have finished the book on the plane back and I am ready.
I am ready for a new adventure, or ready to continue to achieve a desired adventure.
I love the work of Pam Grout and reading Pam’s blog always puts me back on track and in a really good place. A place that feels like home so this morning I dipped my toe.
I wasn’t sure how far back it was since I read her blog and I always feel I am missing out on something delicious if I don’t devour every entry so I googled her page and went back until I recognised something familiar. When I saw something unfamiliar I started reading but as it happened I had read it but a second read was just what I needed today.
There was a scenario of an exchange student entering a Hotel room for the first time with a radio left playing in the room by the maid. The student found the music not to their choice but not ever coming across a radio before didn’t know how to change the channel and what Pam was saying is that we usually stay on our channel when at any given second we can change it to another and another and another.
Recently visiting my parents my Dad told me how a relative whilst enquiring on mine and my sisters welfare made a derogatory comment and my Dad told me of his response.
My Dad told them that we were both well and both had new jobs and the relative replied in more detail than I am putting here “More new jobs?
I have blogged about how I was excited about a big change coming because I could feel it and dissatisfied with my job I listened to a Louise Hay YouTube audio I found on my commute to inspire me that I could find a new job and then a set of circumstances arose and it happened. Then my Mum told me that my sister who was unhappy in her job felt that her age was against her ever finding a new job and I told Mum to tell her please, please don’t believe that and not to give up trying and then a job literally fell in to her lap.
My Dad replied to our relative in his response to our new jobs that he was very proud of both of us. He said he knew of people who spent well over 30 years plus in jobs they hated and moaned every day about them but never had the courage to change them and he was proud that we acknowledged we weren’t happy and had enough self-respect for ourselves to get out there and find something better. Go Dad !!
And I feel this fitted in well with Pam’s Blog post we can either stay on the same channel or change it at any time for a myriad of other channels.
I have had people ask me what kind of music I like and surprised at my response because they pigeon-hole me because of the way I look but some days I like Rock and Roll, some days I am in the mood for classical, club or cheese – I like a lot of cheese, cheese makes me happy and car dance, chair dance and recently sun-bed dance.
Recently I changed my channel and changed my job and I like my job but I also like Channel hopping and seeing what new and exciting opportunities are out there because that’s who I am and I am proud I am a Channel hopper and now I know my Dad is proud I am a Channel hopper.
Are you a Channel Hopper or have you forgotten you have the ability to change Channels at any given second???
Much love !!!!!!
Gorgeously Busy
I have been so gorgeously busy I haven’t had time to blog but the Law of Attraction hasn’t stopped and now I am starting to feel a bit more Ahhhh I am trying to get my normality back.
My normality is reading all stuff LAO, listening to inspiring material to and from work and journal and blog etc.
Because I haven’t been doing these normal things the Universe has been showing off big time as if to say “Hello remember me !!”
The other day I had a text message that my mother-in-law required my passport number for our up and coming holiday. Now I always keep them in the same place but mine wasn’t there. I started searching and the more I looked and hadn’t found it I felt I was running out of options and I became more and more anxious forgetting my constant connection to the Universe. Eventually I saw a great big fat “STOP” sign in front of my consciousness and I was reminded of the greatness that we are ALL ALWAYS connected to.
Over time, more and more I have believed in the “Ask and it is Given” philosophy. Believe because I have so many demonstrations that it is true so I stopped and asked for help in finding my passport but I also put a time deadline on it because the info was required ASAP.
I’ve read about this before but not really adopted it but this time I gave the deadline of 7pm the following evening.
The following day a series of events happened when I received a text from my partner saying he had found my passport and this was hours before my deadline so I felt the Universe was showing off.
There has also little things like seeing a car I desire and wonder why everyone I see is a 4 door version and when I designed my car on-line I designed a 2 door version and a short time later a 2 door version went passed. Not only a 2 door version but it had a number plate of M100 PMA and I translated it in to “My 100% Positive Mental Attitude”. You might be thinking ‘Yeah Right’ but I once read that the Universe is communicating to us 24/7 and if you have a strong feeling about something regardless how bizarre you think it is, it is a message. In my crazy little world I squealed with excitement.
Recently I thought how my partner had talked about renovating our bedroom but then never mentioned it again and I thought how nice it would be to do some work on our house to modernise it and less than 24 hours later he offered me two options for my birthday present and one was renovate the bedroom. That’s another reason I have been gorgeously busy as I have working on my new wonderful fulfilling work (check previous blog post) and then in the evening working flat out with my partner on our completely reformed bedroom beautiful luxury bedroom. Maybe a little ungrateful but enjoying the results so much I fantasised about getting the whole house finished (which has been a work in progress since 2003) but my partner has always dismissed my ideas then several hours later after having the thought he brings up the subject and says he’s considering talking to his builder friend to come and give us an estimate to at least give us a ball park figure to play with and even explained how he had been planning to raise the money.
Yesterday I noticed how a neighbour had had there whole frontage done in a patterned concrete and thought how cool it looked and how nice it would be to have it. Tonight there was a knock at the door and it turned out my partner had requested the guys doing this task to come to our house and give us a quote.
Now this is almost scary how I have a random thought and with almost lightning speed it manifests but the real miracle was when I ask the Universe to help not myself but my partner.
I have seen information previously that you can’t influence others but seeing my partners anxiety over a subject that he faced I asked for help for him and this issue. Later that day he called to see what time my train was coming in and then added guess what and he told me a series of events that had happened that day and not only was his concern resolved there was a cherry on top from a totally unexpected source that made the situation sit totally in the comfort zone and I can’t express how happy this made me feel. Even more happy than my own personal manifestations.
Don’t forget to notice the LOA’s happening in your own life then revel in the perfection in them however crazy you think you are for acknowledging them and always show you gratitude but lastly ask “How Does it Get Better Than This?” (a reference from Dr Dain Heer’s book ‘Being you, Changing The World’) because then you encourage the momentum of more magnificent, manifestations to appear.
Be Crazy Happy
I love Pam Grout and today Pam has posted a great new blog on happiness.
Just after I read it I look up at my TV screen and see an older gentleman dressed in a Union Jack suit being interviewed in London.
I thought how long have I been reading because the last time I looked it was our local news.
I am no longer a news person as I create my own reality and don’t want it tarnished with the National doom and gloom daily, read all about how horrible we all are and the world is but I do like a dip in to what’s happening near me.
The man Terry Hutt is in fact local to me but has travelled to London for the immanent birth of our 4th in line to the thrown.
Terry said with joy in his voice that 2 years ago he slept rough for 12 days to see Prince George and he said if he has to wait and sleep rough for another 12 days for 2 or 3 minutes to see the new baby it will be worth it.
Terry is hoping that the birth of the baby will be on the 30th of April as that is his 80th birthday. I too hope it will be on this day to heighten Terry’s joy even more because to me Terry is a legend.
He’s following his bliss and doing what makes him feel happy regardless if others think him crazy.
Maybe we should all take a leaf out of Terry’s book and do what makes us crazily happy !!!
I’m getting good at this
I’ve changed lines hoorah !!!
If you’ve read my recent posts that statement will be relevant as will two white ducks and waiting for the pow, pow, pow and that one of my favourite statements is “That Once you make a decision, the Universe conspires to make it work”
Well it definitely does.
Abraham Hicks talks of unwanted things sets off rockets of desire in your vortex of wanted things.
Well in my employment daily I was faced with things I did not want to be part of. I made a decision to seek alternative employment and inspired by Louise Hay’s ‘I can do it’ I believed there are lots of opportunities available to me and I now have fulfilling employment etc.
I sat evening after evening applying for job after job and then I had a telephone interview. During this interview I was saying I was willing to do things that I didn’t really feel comfortable with in a future job role because I was desperate to get a new job.
I sat on my bed (the place to took the call) feeling heavy. It then dawned on me I wasn’t truly being me and I was taking action, action and not inspired action. (another reference to previous post)
I decided then that I wanted a job that I could be totally me and some other things. Tiny details but I wanted a job where I could wear nice clothes and wear nail varnish and not have to wear jeans and T shirt and have to keep my nails short and clean and crawl around machinery and I wanted to work for a forward thinking company that believed in and followed modern legislation and believed in equality and diversity so I made a decision to chill out for a week and relax and come back in a weeks time refreshed and recommence my job search with a renewed vigour and only look for roles worthy of me with the kind of values that I believed in like treating people fairly and kindly.
It was Easter weekend here in England and with 4 days off I was feeling relaxed and as my partner was mainly working I was listening and reading a lot. I listened to a Lilou Mace video with Dr Dain Heer and I liked what he was saying so I bought his book which the Universe was obviously planting in front of me to fall in line with my current thinking.
The book title is “Being You, Changing the World”
In the book Dr Dain talks of asking questions and when faced with something ask does it make you feel heavy or light and also when something good happens, don’t stop there ask “how does it get better than this” to encourage the Universe to bring you more and more fantastic celebrations of life.
On the Sunday, my partners only day off we went shopping and on the way I saw many signs that I believe were signs from the Universe and each time I asked “How does it get better than this?” and the more I did it the more magnificent things I saw. I even saw two white ducks sitting in a field and I had to stifle a laugh.
The next morning I found an email about a job interview. I hadn’t been diligent in reading my emails not thinking that anyone would contact me over the Easter weekend. The email was inviting me to an interview at 9 o clock on the Wednesday morning and to bring all evidence of certificates. This immediately felt heavy because I had a really busy, important week at work and I didn’t know how I was going to attend the interview and also naively hadn’t thought where all my certificates were stashed.
Using the ‘Heavy’, ‘Light’ technique I asked the question to the Universe “What should I do with this situation?” The answer was to email them politely thanking them for the invite but explain my reasons for not being able to attend. This felt light.
On the Wednesday a weird sequence of events happened and then at about half 1 in the afternoon I checked my emails where I was surprised to see I had received an email asking was it due to date and time that I was unable to attend as they could be flexible. I sent another ‘light feeling’ email and they emailed back saying they could accommodate me 5pm that evening but that was it.
Question to self “Should I go?”.
Answer “Go” and it felt light.
Well I had the most unprepared fantastic interview where I was able just to be 100% me and they loved it and now what seemed to be a Train Wreck was in fact definitely me changing tracks “Ka Pow, Pow, Pow !!!” oh and I get to wear nice clothes and grow my nails and wear nail polish and they have an amazing encouraging philosophy of equality and diversity etc, etc, etc.
Oooo !! Excited about being born
I am tingling with anticipation about being born
For a long time I have focused on stories about people finding success in later life. I especially focus on this when I am struggling, feeling like giving up or angry at myself for not achieving certain things after all these years and thankfully I hardly do any of the latter more and more infrequently.
Tonight I was happy to see a magazine program having a section on people who had found success later in life.
Sea Sick Steve was on the program and he said he was actually happy that he didn’t find success until later life. Steve in now 66.
There was also a lady who had a dream about buying Caribbean baby food and the dream was still with her on waking and realised that she couldn’t buy Caribbean baby food so started a business and another lady who as a child ran home in joy to tell her mother a joke she had learned. Her mother told that she shouldn’t use those words and so closed her mind to her dream of telling jokes however now at 77 she is a stand up comedian.
The other day and almost every day since I have listened to a Louise Hay audio version of ‘I Can Do It’.
The first time I heard it something made me go whoa !! Louise suggested that on the eve of your 49th birthday see it as an infancy to a new life.
In just over a month it’s my birthdate. Read that again.
I said birthdate not birthday because in just over a month I am 49 so I am about to be born (again).
My body might not be as slim as I wish and when I look at my face in a magnifying mirror first thing in the morning I may sometimes withdraw rather rapidly and go “Whoa easy Tiger” as I see some of the lines around my eyes but I do not partake in the self talk that some people around me engage in (that are often younger than me) about feeling old or I can’t do A, B or C now that I am this old. Or since I turned 30,40 etc …..
My body doesn’t feel any different now than it has ever done.
Next week I do plan to start trying to eliminate sugar from my diet after reading Amelia Freer’s book ‘Eat, Nourish, Glow’ and Bruce Lipton’s blog and the effects it has on our body and the proven effects on improving your diet has on your gene’s and I want to find time to do more Yoga again but this to me is just common sense and not an obsession of ‘Oh I am getting older’ …
Because as I said I am about to be reborn but in fact we get the chance to be reborn everyday …… when we wake up.
Everyday is an opportunity to start again. Change your thoughts, break old negative non productive belief patterns, decide to be happy instead of sad, forgive someone, love more. The list is endless and joyous.
I am so excited right now.
What are you going to wake excited about tomorrow?
What are you going to be reborn about today?
Have a fabulous weekend.
Excited about the Pow, pow, pow to come.
The other day whilst playing with my new toy, some basebuds I listened to a podcast on Hay House radio with Mike Dooley.
It was only a snap shot of an even longer cast but it still had some great content to relate to.
The final words were on the subject Understanding your Power, Mike said when you understand you are an extension of God the truth will set you free, you become excited and optimistic. You realise there are no bad things that happen in time and space everything makes you more, everything was in alignment and what actually looks like a train wreck was actually a set up for the best of your life.
Now I am not normally a God person. I don’t partake in the old man with a white beard sitting saying that’s good, that’s bad, you’re right, you’re wrong, you’re in, you’re out philosophy.My God stands for ‘Good Orderly Design’ and is the energy that permeates everything, that is everything and in everything so is in us and that’s why I get what Mike Dooley is saying about the Power within us.
When you can’t see the abundance etc you think somethings wrong or you are doing something wrong, (yep done that many, many times) no !! don’t draw conclusions with your physical senses, know that everything makes you more and in hindsight it will be clear.
5 years ago my life felt like a Train Wreck now I can see that everything was working out perfectly but at the time I was like ahhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!
Mike said at a time in his life when he felt the rug was pulled from under him he still had his dreams and tried to do something every day to stay focused on his dreams whilst pulling together a Vision Board.
I was struck particularly by one of his 4 goals, creative fulfilling work.
At the moment my work life is like a Train Wreck but unlike the uneducated me of 5 years ago I am not going ahhhhhhh !! any more.
Only this morning I was making up affirmations up about the gratitude I have for the amazing opportunities and abundance that have come my way like they have already arrived because at the same time there was this voice telling me, reminding me this is all part of the path, this ALL has a purpose and I am finally getting it now, not to get stressed or try to figure it out. It’s already done and the magic of the Universe will go pow, pow, pow and do something mind blowingly miraculous when I least expect it and I get that now, I trust that now. I can let it ALL go now in Faith and get excited about the mystery about it now instead of trying to make it work. The work is not my job staying positive and happy and in FAITH is my job.
I have manifested bottles of perfume to Audi A4 convertibles and MacBook Pro’s so far, why not every thing else on my vision-board and beyond. This is not a Train wreck, I am just changing lines.
Mike says – When we realise our power. We realise that life is beautiful, we are powerful. We are literally the eyes and the ears of God come alive in the dream of life. Inclined to succeed, pushed on to greatness every single day. Someone grounded in that truth becomes and unstoppable race horse.
Get excited about the Pow, pow, pow of life like I am and remember there is a solution to every problem.
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