Today has not been a comfortable day to go through and I have been doing my darndest to stay positive or look for the gifts wrapped in Sandpaper (as Lisa Nichols) would call them.
I work with a couple of people who are not pleasant (down right devious, there I’ve said it amongst other things) and appear to be made of Teflon.
Yesterday I copied something I saw online and aimed to put it into practice but today it was hard (Am I being tested?)
When you can look beneath their behavior that hurt you and you can see the frightened child – it becomes nearly impossible to be angry and carry a grudge.
I do have a little light on the horizon and I am playing all secret squirrel about it at the moment but I Am only in the first steps of setting it up, not in a position to say ‘Whatever, I’m out of here’ YET !!
Because of this I felt is it really worth looking for another job then I remembered listening to a Wayne Dyer video on YouTube the other day and Wayne explained how he admitted being anxious and humbled about doing a public television presentation and then he said he just released it as said “God Guide me”.
This part of the presentation came back into my mind when I was asking myself do I stay or do I go and I too said “God guide me” then immediately said Thank You – ask and it is given remember.
As I planned to leave for the day something held me up and I quickly went into an office to see a friendly colleague. These extra few unplanned minutes meant that I then excited the building at the very moment one of the Teflon people were un-incriminating themselves by incriminating me. I know I have nothing to worry about because judging what I heard I have the documentation to back myself up but it’s just so energy draining having to do so unnecessarily and then it hit me. Was I meant to see this? Is the thought and words ‘Energy Draining’ the message I needed to say time for a fresh start?
When I got home I decided my plan was to follow my instincts and find the best feeling thought and another and another to raise my energy.
I read recently by several authors all at once that whatever happens you owe it to yourself to look for the best feeling thought in any situationto keep your energy high. The Universe can’t bring miracles to you if your energy is low. I also remembered to remember we never know what the plan is so trust that this is all happening for a reason. That thought instantly made me feel better.
The next instinctive thought was to have a cup of coffee and some fruit and download some meditation apps I seen recommended in a magazine. Suitably calmed the next thought was to play the rest of the ‘Sex in The City’ episode that I recorded as we were leaving the house the other day. Now I have nothing against ‘Sex in The City’ but I have never been an avid follower but something made me decide to record the rest of the episode that just came on the TV as I was getting ready.
At the end it was all lovely and happy ending’s all round, Big came to Paris to find Carrie (get to see land marks of my two favorite cities, bonus all round) and then at the end instead of the normal sound track they played “You’ve got the Love” by ‘The Source’ Ft Candi Staton. I LOVE this track and have turned to it in the car on many occasions in the long and distant past but for some reason when I heard the first few lyrics I just burst into tears, uncontrollable tears but it wasn’t tears of sadness, it felt Goooooooddd !! A Source (boom boom) of release.
And so apt a song when earlier I had asked “God guide me !!