I have to admit I haven’t ever finished reading Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz but what I have read I can totally relate to and one day I promise myself I will complete it and recommend it to everyone.

I was born with a serious bowl condition that was so serious that it only came to light when it killed me at 6 weeks old. Yes it actually made my heart stop. As with everyone The Law of Attraction was working in my life before I ever knew it existed. My mum is religious and tells me the tale how the doctor came to tell her that he had never known a female child ever survive of my condition and suggested to call the minister. I was Christened on the operating table. My heart stopped during the operation and as my Mum (bless her) sat in the corridor alone she prayed and says at that point she felt a calmness come over her and the energy in the corridor changed and she knew then with 100% Faith that I would be OK and with that she heard me cry.

I like the imagines that I have seen recently where people have been wearing things like their colostomy bags loud and proud for the world to see and it makes me want to shout “Hallelujah” because since that operation I have worn a large scar on my abdomen loud and proud because every time I see it reminds me how short my life could have been and am grateful for so many things I have been able to experience since that date.

However as a teen I was very, very close to taking my own life from the emotional pain of bullying. I felt physically sick at the thought of going to school and being constantly reminded how ugly I was but again thankfully LOA stepped in. I was already considering and planning how I could end the pain when a series of events went into action. Thinking back, again without knowing the power of the Universe I think I gave it a ultimatium something like “You need to do something quick to stop this pain or I’m outta here !”

Last night I learnt of the book “The Cosmic Ordering Service” by the late Barbel Mohr and I realise now I had put in a Cosmic Order and I wasn’t let down.

The outcome was, to try to make it short our new family dentist sent me to a specialist puzzled by my unusually high tooth decay after their tests hadn’t identified the reason. Further tests found facial defects internally and this specialist had just pioneered some facial corrective surgery and asked if I was willing to try? Before the actually surgery I underwent 2 years preparational orthodontic treatment and eventually at 16 had a 9 and half hour operation however my life changed the minute I knew I was going to have the operation and the bully’s never bothered me again. I don’t mean I necessarily stopped being bullied but I didn’t let it affect me any more.

Maxwell Maltz was a plastic surgeon and his book is about how he noticed the difference in some of his patients after surgery however for some of his patients it had no effect what so ever and this interested him. For me both of my Operations changed my out look on life and one changed my life two years before it even happened and that’s why I relate to Maxwell’s material.

This morning I came across this article accidentally about photo-shopping:

http://www.msn.com/en-gb/health/mindandbody/retouched-celebs-a-virtual-reality-too-far/ss-BBaVsdk?ocid=iehp#image=50

It is so sad that there are so many cases of eating disorders but even the article says that photo shopped images are not necessarily to blame because an individuals attitude towards the images contributes but this YouTube link contained in the article still shocked me what they actually do.

My current favourite car dancing tune is Meghan Trainer – All About The Base. But as well as loving the tune I love the message and it makes me love myself even more. I actually celebrate my curves as I bop along to the lyrics and I have downloaded it. Maybe it will be my new morning ‘Happy’ song but not just yet because Nina Simone “Feeling Good” is currently on the agenda for tomorrow.

I have already blogged that I recently came across the book “Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends” on It by Kamal Ravikant and say “I Love Myself” over and over again as many times as I can physically remember to do it so if YOU aren’t loving your self say “I Love Myself, I Love Myself” NOW or by the books I mentioned because today’s media’s beauty is all an illusion and your are already Beautiful