Lunch with Ben Whishaw

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I try to live an ‘Inspired Life’ and to be the spiritual being I truly am as often as I can in the way Wayne Dyer describes being spiritual.

Wayne says to live an inspired life any thought that excludes another person or thing is not a spiritual thought and our work is to constantly watch our thoughts and any thought that does not match that practice change it.

Watch yourself and catch yourself when you have a thought of seperation 

An area I need to work on are Blanket statements, they irritate me and therefore the people that make them.

Recently I heard a TV presenter say that all women want to go to lunch with George Clooney and all men want to be George Clooney. No disrespect George I think you are lovely and a very interesting person to spend time with but sorry I do not like being rustled up like a sheep into a blanket statement.

Then I probably end up telling the person on the TV off for making such a generalisation and reminding them that they can’t make that judgement on behalf of everyone even though they can’t hear me.

See I said I needed to work on this area.

Actually when I think about it I would rather spend a lunch date with Ben Whishaw. I don’t know what it is about Ben but whenever I see him acting something genuine exudes from him that makes me think you are a nice interesting person with a gentle quality.

The same thing happened to me many moons ago with Liam Neeson when he played a character called “Blacky” in a TV adaptation of “A Women of Substance” long before he became to the prominant position he is in today and my mum, bless her tells people I had a crush on him long before anyone else.

Crush maybe but what is it that draws us towards some people and dislike others? And what is it that makes someones George Clooney and someone else’s Ben Whishaw?

In other words what energy is matching up here?

The older I get I see the things I am attracted to and what attracts me to them has always been different to most people I have come in to direct physical contact with that’s why I always felt like the girl on the right.

Another thing age has given me the luxury of is …….. I don’t care !!

I embrace my personality traits others might find annoying because I believe these were my God given talents and gifts agreed upon before I came in to the physical and I am not going to deny what was given to me by the Infinite Intelligence.

I am blessed with some incredible friends and there must be something about the energy they and I resonate that brought us together and stay together.

Birds of a feather flock together

It’s easy to be spiritual about people we flock to. The test of spirituality is to embrace everyone. 

We maybe resonating on different  vibrational levels but our spiritual source is from the exact same origin 

My job now is to catch myself separating myself from blankets and embrace them. Sounds cosy.

Have a spiritually resonated week.

I’m the happiest penguin ever

Normally when I go to London I quite happily accept that the London way is bustle, bustle, push and push, especially on Tubes.

I was there this week and I have to admit it was slightly disconcerting at 08:30 in the morning after just arriving as you are getting off a tube and heading towards an escalator and hundreds off people were heading towards you coming off of escalators like a rampaging bull – Mumma !!!

With plenty of time I stood to one side and all was well, I wasn’t stampeded.

The following morning and my last day in London I waited patiently like I normally do and observed when even a short women desperately trying to get her child to school pushed passed my place in the tube ticket terminal queue by lifting my arm up and forcing her child through followed by herself and never even acknowledged my presence. Guess that’s how it has to be every day to get on with your day the London way, or is it.

Later that day I was more on deadline myself to get to on two different tubes to get me to Paddington station for my Train home. As the tube approached and it appeared full and not wanting to be in my usual situation where by everyone pushes past me and I am either doing the impression of a sardine with my face impressioned against the glass of the tube door or even worse pressed up against someones smelly armpit and as sometimes happens, actually left still standing on the platform I needed to rethink my approach.

I took a step closer to the train and then another step closer. I hadn’t pushed past anyone I had literally stepped forward in alignment from where I was previously stood and waited for the doors to open and the passengers to alight but I was ready, once the last person alighted I was in.

I was in perfect alignment with the train door and as I stepped up on to the Train a voice from the side of me said ‘There is no need to push”. How ironic I thought. I don’t think I have ever heard anyone speak to each other on a tube, they very rarely make eye contact and the first time I try a bit of dog eat dog boom I get the one person with the moral compass to speak out.

I had just been on a course where it spoke about Parent, Child, Adult how to react in situations or how we normally react instinctively.

I looked at the young man looking smug and smiling to himself and I felt compelled to reply to his comment. Calmly I pointed out that I am not local but whenever I come to the ‘Big Smoke’ (I didn’t actually use that terminology) due to my polite nature I am normally left standing on the platform whilst everyone else pushes passed me and today I thought I would change my tact and follow the London way. He replied it wasn’t the London way and words just fell out of my mouth and told him it was how it was every time I came here.

The conversation ended and everyone else appeared to adopt the normal stance of no eye contact, no speaking and normal service resumed.

I did however after have, maybe the weirdest thought “How would have Wayne Dyer handled that?”

The following morning I was not in work and had the luxury to do what I wanted and following advise from Oprah posted in regards to Thanks Giving chose some inspirational material to listen to before getting out of bed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FiQ6S6Jx9_I

In the video Wayne practised kinesiology on one of the crew and I knew instantly what Wayne would have done and I knew what I would do if I had that experience over or in future.

If I had the situation over again I would have reverted to type and not stepped forward in the first place and waited calmly and patiently and avoided the whole situation and that thought felt right, felt good, felt like who I am and the essence of me.

This process of how thought affects the body as practiced through kinesiology in the Video stuck with me and how your body reacts via love and how it reacts via hate and revenge, I only wanted to think thoughts of LOVE and I set myself an experiment to go about my day and despite however anyone behaved I would always revert my thought back to LOVE.

I had to pay two separate visits to a supermarket and I was no angel. When I stood to one side to let people pass and they didn’t even acknowledge me it initially crossed my mind ‘What am I invisible here?’ but then I reminded myself think thoughts of love, think thoughts of love if only for your own best interests.

When queuing to get out of the car park and a man aggressively pulled out from behind someone else and tried to force his way into to the queue I was in I physically felt myself pull forward as did the guy in front of me as to try to stop him. I, then realising what I was doing relaxed and started letting people out one by one in front of me. I turned the music up on my car radio and thought ‘The longer I am here the more I get to enjoy these tunes’.

I checked the time it took to get out of the car park after letting several people out and it was 7 minutes in total. Not much in the grand scheme of things and I was far happier and calmer than the majority of people I recalled coming in to contact with throughout my day.

That’s why I feel I am and can relate to the ‘Happiest Penguin Ever’

We all have a choice and the power to attract in to our day the best experiences regardless of the situations or other poples reactions.

Have a great weekend and lets all be happy Penguin’s

Just because

Just because the news is doing what it does best. Focusing on negativity.

I saw this on social media and it made me feel good.

We can’t heal hate with more hate. We cannot eradicate fear by focusing on fear.

What we think about we bring about so lets bring about love and positivity and hope and faith and by watching something like this may raise our vibrations and open us to attract something beautiful and it feels like a good place to start

 

Stress Makes You Thick

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Pollyanna is back

Even Pollyanna had her down days but it was the love of the people that she showed kindness to that helped her back.

It was me showing love to me that brought me back.

Being authentic to myself. Acknowledging I deserve better and standing up for myself despite the consequences is an empowering feeling.

You maybe thinking “Easy for you to say but I need my job, I need to pay the bills, I have a family support.”

So do I but from previous experience of undervaluing myself and the trauma’s that it brings is just not worth it, my health and well-being is far more valuable and (now) believe if I face life from this stand point the Universe will celebrate with me and not forsake me.

I recently re-read something by Bruce Lipton about the effects of stress on the brain. Thankfully I read this in the middle of a really bad stressful state I had allowed myself in to that reminded me to pull myself up by my own boots straps.

My interpretation of Bruce’s words to myself was “Stop it, stress makes you thick”.

The last two days something has brought a massive national delay to our operations. The majority of the people have spent this time moaning and a groaning while I have sat in an oasis of calm and despite all the issues I don’t seem to have been experiencing them as much as anyone else.

Has my positive thought processes allowed the internet energies find their way in to my connection better? I doubt it …. yet?

While one particular colleague was stomping around using foul language and getting themselves in the ‘Thick state’ and they approached me and asked aren’t you stressed?

“No” I replied. “Stress is a choice and if I find myself getting stressed I’ll just change my thought. It only takes 16 seconds”

“16 seconds?”

“Yeah, in 68 seconds you will have really changed your thoughts”

He walked away spouting “You read too much”

Totally unfazed I replied “No, I don’t read enough”.

5 Years ago before really embracing The Law of Attraction I was a mess. A terrified puddle basically. Now when I get stressed at some point I go “how did I let that happen’. It is so infrequent it will rock me.

At 3am I went back to bed buzzing because I couldn’t sleep, came downstairs, repaired two pairs of pants/trousers that I have been meaning to fix for ages, journaled and read some Liz Gilbert – Big Magic. Ended it on a high note in the book and took myself back of to bed feeling – Big Magic.

Happiness is a habit we can cultivate if we keep practicing and keep reading the right books.

The Procreation Myth

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This is not my normal LOA post, this fell out of me on my Evernote page this morning when instinct told me to write down something I called the Procreation Myth that came back to me before I forgot it and then after it all fell out of me instinct said blog it so here I am laying myself raw:

All along growing up I had a feeling inside that I wasn’t like everyone else around me. I didn’t want to get married and have babies. I wanted a career. I wanted independence. I wanted to work in London, buy my own home, on my own. I wanted t travel alone and I was pretty determined that would be the case and visualised myself power dressed, carrying a portfolio and returning to my one bedroom contemporary apartment and planned to go to college and then University.

Life gave me crossroads and threw up other options because I wasn’t aware at the time I was throwing thoughts out there and wasn’t aware of the power of my own thoughts and how they brought those crossroads to my door and gradually somewhere inside of all of that the Procreation Myth was whispering in my ear and lack of confidence in myself and the need to please I allowed myself to put my authenticity to one side, my voice, my desires, my dreams and goals and here I was despite so much wanting a different vision. Unhappily married with 3 children that I loved and hated at the same time.

It is important to say that I didn’t hate them for a second as individuals and now I have written it I didn’t hate them at all I hated myself for being someone I planned so hard not to be. A mother. I was probably berating myself without even hearing it but what I was probably saying to myself when I found being a mother sooooooooo hard was “You idiot, how did you get here? This is not what you planned stupid”

I heard people saying how fulfilling being a mother was and how joyous their children were and this only added to my inner turmoil because this led to more self loathing. “You’re right, you shouldn’t have not been a mother, how did you let yourself get here? You suck at this. You should have never let this happen, they are happy because that is what they were meant to be, you’re struggling because it wasn’t the plan and it wasn’t a plan for you for a reason. It was a message to stop you having kids because you suck at it and you were designed for something else but you failed and you bought in to the procreation myth.

The Procreation Myth is as I see it written below:

It is not until you get married you realise to didn’t need too

It is not until you have babies you realise you didn’t need them

I wrote the procreation myth late one night whilst I was alone. Which was pretty much all the time, while my husband was away and the kids were in bed and in a way writing it was a relief. It was an acknowledgement that yes we don’t need too but most of us don’t question it.

I wrote that over 20 years ago and two things have changed since then and actually one as I write these words.

I am so grateful I live in this time and I express my gratitude almost everyday. So much has changed in that 20 years where evolution is concerned and the equality in the world. To some it may not appear that way but if we stop to analyse the evidence not just in the area of being a women but so many people are free to express themselves as who they truly are and the ability to be their authentic selves on the public forum instead of a stilted silent wish inside their heads and the evidence is also there almost daily if we look for it as teenage women in oppressed counties stand up and say I want an education, I don’t want to marry that person, I don’t want to be mutilated because of some archaic belief that is not relevant, I love this person and actually I do want to marry them and have children with them even if they are the same-sex as me and more and more each day in more and more places that is being accepted as the norm and more and more each day in more and more places that will become the norm as we become more aware.

Awareness is a magnificent gift, rather than blind acceptance and what I have become aware of as I write these words that are just flowing through me is that maybe something at a higher vibration than my physical presence was guiding me along in to the procreation myth because whilst it was hard at the time I cannot think of anything more joyous than my children and my now grandchildren and if I hadn’t struggled in my now long dead marriage or struggled with motherhood I wouldn’t be reaping the harvest now – as my Dearest now departed Wayne Dyer so eloquently pointed out in his book “I Can See Clearly Now”.

Travelling back from somewhere yesterday I listened to Les Brown say when you step up it will be hard. It won’t be easy. Easy is staying where you are. Hard is changing that habit. Hard is stepping out of your comfort zone but it will be worth it.

We truly live in an age where nothing is impossible and everything is ‘Possible’ so go forth and live your authenticity loud and proud and if and when those saboteurs start speaking to you like mine did above we have sooooooooo many tools available to us at the touch of a button to help us to break those habits and break out of our comfort zones and find new ways of living.

Here’s to an even better, more aware future.